Isn't this fun?

2009-06-09T01:50:00.000-07:00

So many things have been happening.

here's just some random stuff. -

To those whom I haven't gloated to, ....

I HAVE A NEW ROOM! (:
(or rather, I have my OWN room.)

I effectively moved in about three weeks ago.
AND IT'S FRIGGIN AWESOME
having space and all.

ok, I guess the whole crazy-animated-exclamatory phase is over.
or I'm just too tired to go into the details.

Yea, well basically, I recently camp home from a five day camp.
last week.
I was COMPLETELY homesick on the first day/night, and the salty milo for supper didn't help.
furthermore i was left alone most of the time (esp the first two days) to help facilitation with my group so that kinda sucked. but as the time passed, i got used to it i guess. not a bad bunch of people. and the rest of the instructors too were cool. (:

and i realise that there is really a complete lack of punctuation so it's really kinda difficult to get what i'm saying. but then again, no one really does get what im saying so lets just forget the attempt to explain.

moving on.

my mom's been staying home now more often and taking more leaves from work coz she has many to clear. and its been so so fun its just like everyday's a holiday ya know?
and i didn't really realise how much i missed her even though i see her everyday. on the day i came back from camp she gave me a really big big hug and it just felt so nice. i guess its coz she was at home the whole week so she really didnt have much work to think about (and i'd usually be there to disturb her and stuff) and then she said she missed me and i was so O:

HAHAHAHA.

then she commented about how she'd hear the guy behind our house playing the piano and how he'd play some similar songs to the ones i play and i was quite shocked that she actually heard what i play. so. HAHA.

wow i suddenly feel happy again.

(:

ok bye now!

STEPPING DOWN SOON!!!!

2009-04-11T02:37:00.000-07:00

ARGHZZSS

so much work to do!
and all my weekends are taken up!
I can't even go back to Yang Zheng to tutor anymore!! ):

Had SI Facilitation training today.
just came back not too long ago.
the house is still in a partial mess from yesterdays big clean out.
but, oh whutdaheck.

i was watching 'Ghost Whisperer' last night on the telly.
coz it just happened to show.
and.
and.

Melinda's husband's so awesome.
I mean, Jim Clancy, and not Sam whatever.
(coz Sam's not understanding though he treats her really nice and the whole dating thing is sweet but. yea. in the end. i'm pretty sure he'll become all understanding and all that jazz. the lead female needs a husband don't she? or maybe she'll change one?! hmm.. )
ANYWAY, its not David Conrad. sure he's alright looking and all, but
the Character -Jim Clancy- is the one that kicks ass!

seriously man.
whenever i watch that show.
he's always so.. 'ideal husband'
and he's a 'FIRE FIGHTER'
whaaat!
how lucky can she get!
- i mean, besides the whole 'Ghost seeing' thingy.-
that's beside the point.

argh/

i so want a man.

):

i don't NEED one,
i just want one.
=/

its like this after effect from shows like these.

and after some time the feeling will just fade, but not totally disappear, and then it will start all over again when i see another similar 'ideal-husband/boyfriend' character.
hahahahaa.

SO ANNOYING.

still. it won't happen.

weird eh.
coming from me.

TA PEOPLE!~

2009-04-10T06:54:00.000-07:00

Had a really long day.

Was initially supposed to head out to do some work with friends before binging on some Starbucks to drown sorrows over PW.

Anyways, nothing of that sort happened, coz I was stuck at home all day packing for my new room. (:

good thing. but.
i'm extremely tired.

we were supposed to go to Ikea for ideas and to buy some stuff.
In the end, we left my grandmas too late.
and so.
i was really disappointed.

it was largely because, my uncle bought durians.
and well.
anyone who knows me (close enough)
knows, that I LOVE DURIANS.

anyway.
i only,
had
one
piece.

)'=

and the sad thing.
is.
ah nvm.

hahaha.

anyways.
it may seem insignificant, and immature and everything.
but whatever.

anyway.

haven't played 'spanish trumpet' (on piano) in a long time.
and.
in my discontent, i decided to vent my frustrations, and play this song that my dad strongly dislikes.
*guess the part I didn't disclose has been a little exposed.*

after that.
i just sorta played.
whatever i
felt?
hahaha.
totally random, (rather, emotional song),
-that sounded quite good-
which i wish i had recorded.

(x

happy.

-ier.

school tmr. ):

bye.

2009-03-27T08:40:00.000-07:00

There has been too much drama.
much too much.

my school work is slipping.
my focus is waning.
and i'm feeling sicker and sicker as i go along.

the worst dip was on the 25th.
the most embarrassing day.
the most painful.
one that caused me much guilt.

its safe to say.
the event would be the talk of many.
them and their immature tongues wagging.

the series of events,
the grand opening, the bad performance, and the worser ending.
i can safely say.
that i did not like how it ended.
but, i more greatly detest the way things were blown out of proportion.

it was a semi-serious incident.
one that shouldnt have occured,
but not one which should have been taken to such an extent.

i was pissed off.
and i was in a mess.
it was my reputation.
you have to understand.

you say you do.
and i want to believe you.
but yet.
i think its quite safe to say,
that you would never feel the extent of fear nor regret that i felt.

i work with those teachers.
you should see
how their eyes changed when you told them i knew it was planned.
although i didnt

you should feel the judging.
and all the crap i've been working so hard for.
everything for the past year.
all blemished.

people dont remember you for your hard work
rather for the mistakes you make
and i know that only too well

and somehow
one of the biggest problems on my mind currently
is worry for you
and i have no idea why.

conversely.

i know that to you, my existence is naught
coz above all, your pride and ego still weigh the most.
and obviously, naturally,
the bitch who 'left you alone' should
go away.

(faults aside.)

and well thats in your nature.

all i want is not to give a damn
coz to me a good friendship is lost
and i wasn't prepared for that price.

your two words cut me deep.
and i really want not to care.
coz i know you don't.
but its in my nature to do so.

thank you for the journey

and please note that this is not an apology.

2009-03-21T18:58:00.000-07:00

Selfish. Selfish. Selfish ass.

You have completely misunderstood my situation.

How dare you say that I am less committed.

I can assure you that I have done what I could and have already gone right up to the T i/c to ask him for my excuse.

He did not permit it and that is all.

Do not attempt to question my commitment or intimidate me with your attempts at flowery language.

Your actions alone and your inability to understand anyone's feelings or situations other than your own, reflect on yourself and your selfish nature.

Do not pin this on me or on anybody.

You should've gone solo from the start.

I have no idea why you bothered since I bring you such distress.

There have been countless repetitions of this same case.

I have given you the benefit of the doubt.

Of MY DOUBT.

Clearly I myself have misjudged you.

Childish Selfish Boy.

Thank Ford this only lasts till Wednesday.

2009-03-20T17:46:00.000-07:00

Things have been really hectic.

And, I'm getting the exact same feeling I got last year. The time where I started sleeping late in attempt to finish my work, only to turn up late for school the following day. AND I DON'T REMEMBER HOW IN THE WORLD I MANAGED TO GET THAT SHIT OUTTA MY SYSTEM.

It's like, I feel a little stressed. but I'm not doing ANYTHING.
I HAVEN'T BEEN DOING ANYTHING THE ENTIRE WEEK.

I seriously have no idea what to do.
I just feel so bloody tired. *_*

Anyways, things I can remember..

BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!

8GB CREATIVE MOSAIC - from my wonderful wonderful class! (:

PRETTY NECKLACE - Sofia, a member from my wonderful wonderful class! (:

ANTIQUE THEMED COLLECTION OF THINGYS (pitch pipe, buzzlightyear PEZ, and a Little Miss Book.) - JonThon, another member from my wonderful wonderful class! (:

THIS DEFLATED ZEBRA and Something Else I won't mention nor use. -as of yet- From council. (Thanks Zhan Yee, Jermyn, Li Chu.) (:

EEYORE STUFFED PUPPET - Darren Lee. (:

THANKS SO MUCH GUYS!

ORIENTATION 2009
Rather Huge Success. Seriously.
There were many that petitioned their 'not-being-able-to-stick-together-as-a-class-due-to-different-subject-combinations' after the orientation. AHAHA.
and it was annoyingly noisy.

ANYWAY.

AQUILA WON BEST ALLIANCE!!
HURRAH!!

BIG THANKS TO ALL THE TERRIFIC OGLS. YOU GUYS KICK ASS! (:

HOUSE WEEK 2009
Captain's ball was. GREAT. I think it was really fun.
now, the score tabulation and crap.

Went out with Dan and Bjorn a couple of days before. It was really nice seeing them again. It's been only too long. And sadly we only met up for that short lunch. haha. they haven't really changed. and they still rock. so that's good.

ohzz. and I'm in this AJIdol competition. under group vocals. and it was nice that we got through the auditions. and its a really great experience. but the rehearsals (when you have many other things going on,) can really kill man. esp. since the others are already well acquainted to the world of music. and there's the occasional 'tension' in the air. so i'm struggling. still am. though i think i may be improving. (: that's not the point. finals soon. PLEASE DONT MESS UPPPPPPPPPPP.

And I can't remember anything more for now, so.. on to yesterdays events,
my class had our SL project ystd. brought out some kids to Fort Canning. Gave them goodie bags and prizes. felt really happy after everything was over, coz alot of us were really exhausted. Seriously, they were rather difficult to handle. (but still easier than i expected.)
Anyways, after that, had lunch at what, 4? HAHA. again. and then rushed down to Novena for that vocal training thingy our school organized for AJI people. and basically. well. feedback wasnt very good. HAHAHA. so.. later i rushed home to have dinner with my family at Jumbo, coz sister's friend from Holland's over. We started eating at 9. then brought 'em round night Singapore. reached home at 12.30. Dinner was rather disappointed. and I ate spicy food which I really oughtn't.

So. I havent finished any of my homework. nor revision. and later, we're going to Hong Xin for lunch after which I'll be meeting Sharon and Jia Min for my bag buying before rushing home for dinner and heading out to the Night Safari. So yay! no studying today either.

I'm in such deep shit.
more pracs. more pracs.

2009-01-23T16:11:00.000-08:00

YAY! CNY HOLIDAYS!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Went to Fort Canning Park with Sherilyn, Sneha, Sofia and Jon yesterday. (:
We were supposed to check out the place for service learning. we had a little picnic of our own, while somewhat playing Dora the explorer. .. lol. anyways. It was nice. like just us classmates and stuff.

i realise i dont hang out much with my other friends anymore.
that's quite sad.
and recently my PAE friends started talking to me again.
AHAH.
i think it's the period of time.
and the reminiscing.
but, i actually do miss them.
I think it's generally the school that i detested.
but now when i think about it.
maybe it was just me.

zomg. this is so random.

anyway, the weeks been pretty fine.
pretty ok actually.
nah, pretty awesome.
i haven't been late since the first day! AHAHAHAHA.
and, well. it's just like.
now we have so many things to do.
i guess. its better than having nothing, and getting that annoying lethargic feeling.
I'm managing class work.
as in, handing in all my tutorials and stuff.
about the new information from lectures.
well i'm trying.
but the past week its been like.
home at 8 dinner clean up shower comp homework sleep at 1.
pretty much repetitive.
made worse by P.E.
but i'm actually quite grateful for the exercise.
and, well, its not too bad.
but my body's been aching since wednesday.
2 days p.e in a row!
WTH.

well, something ive wanted to comment on,
my change in teachers.

i like my new GP teacher though. GP lessons are now what they should be. INTERESTING and INFORMATIVE. seriously, you'd be quite awake even after a dead boring lecture when you step into his class. He has this thick American accent that many were speculating about. haha. But he's cool so... YAY! (:

and, my new IOW teacher. he's SCARY. really. and has this really weird sense of humour.
i think..
it may be the topic they are teaching.
Imagining Other Worlds.
i hope i don't become like that. :S
but my previous teacher was sorta crazy. AHAHA.
ah, well. my current one's not too bad.
but the 'not handing homework in' part's crazy. luckily i havent gotten into that problem yet.

~sidetrack:
We were supposed to do this piece on a book of our choice. (holiday homework, which i didnt do.) and guess what! I read the book and did the piece in one day! (: slept late. but that's not the point.It may not have been my best ever piece. but its not a piece i would say i'm embarrassed to show. well. i'm just elated that i managed to complete it.

-Through the Looking Glass by Lewis Carroll.
yes. a 'children's' book. but it was in the reading list. There was a lot of things to comment about Alice! like her longing to grow up and the loneliness in her growing up in the other world. The significance of the role of the Queen and well. yea. lots more.

******
back, yes.

There's my new History teacher as well. (:
he seems pretty nice.
geeky in some sense. but a relatively cool geek.
WHO WENT TO CAMBRIDGE!!!
@.@
damn man.
he's quite funny, and speaks softly, or a little femininely rather.
haha.

breaks are now filled with completing of homework so its not so bad when i go home.
but its always entertaining.
like when I was listening to Jon's ipod and while i was singing along to the tunes, he was singing really loudly and getting shot at by Sofia and the rest. It's a you-gotta-be-there-to-know-what-i'm-talking-about sorta thing. yea. and i was watching PONYO on it too!

AHAHAHA.

ok.
well.
i shall be consistent,
in conjunction with my relatively abrupt and random structure,
i shall
end.
here.

end.

2009-01-16T08:23:00.000-08:00

AHH! The first week of school has flown by.
And it's.
Extremely tiring. trying to keep up and all.
HAHA.

There are several things that happened over the week that I'd like to share.
Most of which are occurrences that I find, rather amusing.
Well, to me anyways. So it's not necessary for you to be, remotely entertained.
and well, you may not get it unless you were there.

Anyways, From the top of my head,

(:

On one of the days,(I think Tuesday), my classmates and I were at our usual place rushing out our holiday homework due the next period. (Well, not all of us. Some already did everything. - - )
anyway, the next period was Hist, and we have a new Hist teacher. Not knowing what he's like, and wanting to give a proper impression to him first period, we were rushing through our essays and outlines, frantically scribbling and shouting out questions like

"Is the internal or external factors more significant?" [in the development of decol in SEA]

and

"Which case study supports Nationalism"

)=

THEN, SOMEONE STARTED SCREAMING!!!
and that was shortly followed by a few others around the same table
and they were like

"Jia Li it's behind you!!! AHH!! Don't move!!"

"wth?" = me.

"It's at your leg! It's at your leg!!"
The screaming continued, and as I looked down,

I SAW THE AWESOMEST LOOKING PRAYING MANTIS!

Seriously! It's quite huge! and the colour was just brilliant!
and it's so so adorable.

It was a little jumpy at first, but then bathed in the attention we were showering on it. It hopped on me and climbed up my sleeve on on my head and round to the other side. I wanted to keep it. ): It behaved so much like a pet!!

HAHA.
anyway, on Thursday, my friend and I came across this guy. (the one on the left) THAT HAS HAIR LIKE A BEAR'S! (:
So, we attempted to capture it with our incompetent mobile phone cameras. The process was hilarious.

Friday was relatively alright. I went to cut my hair. Was disappointed that I could not get it short. But, here it is.

We went to Chinatown! And were walking up and down the crowded little lanes, listening to all the banter. It was nice to some extent. And really crowded. We were playing around, and formed a toot-toot-train line. (I duno if this is how it's spelt, but, ahh whatever. HAHA.) anyways, yea it was kinda crazy. Coz we ate alot of food. and well, I was happy. and rather crazy. lol. I told my sister that we should like shout as well. (i mean, like those selling things.) and people would move aside.
and she didn't belive me.
so i ..tried it.
LOL.

"lai ah! lai ah!" lol.
and some other gibberish

then.
well, people stopped to glance.
like i was actually going to take out something to sell.

AHAHAHAHAHA.
so, i just carried on in my toot-toot-train line. lol.

and we walked past this store with one seller leaning over the counter with the microphone, sounding real dead.

"lai ah... lai... yi ge yi kuai........."

so i just glanced at him as we past.

and he suddenly said

"xiao mei.... wei shen me zen me chi hai mei hui jia...."

(something like: hey, it's so late, why haven't you gone home.)

O.O wth. he actually saw me. and he had to say that in the microphone! and well, it was coz it was 11pm and i was still in school uniform. lol.
so I just courteously replied that I'm with my family, and that its alright.

"ke yi ah, gen jia ren chu qu ke yi."

(something like: can ah, it's alright if you go out with your family.)

*pardon my chinese. and , yea. the translations.

was his reply. so, yea. I just quickly walked away.

my parents couldn't stop laughing. /=

anyways,
laundry time.

.

2009-01-12T07:07:00.000-08:00

And so, the first day of school is over.

and surprisingly, it wasn't all that bad.

in fact, i really, actually quite enjoyed myself.

guess, it's coz i missed my mates.

(:

well, there was the usual try-to-complete-as-much-of-the-work-you-were-supposed-to-complete- rush.

thankfully, i finished all that was required. and for the others, we have extensions.

WHOO HOO! (:

and yes, stupidly,
I was late on the first day of school.

well, this basically serves as a lame, poor ass excuse. but lets just squeeze it for all its worth,

I HAD A BAD BAD DREAM.

AHAHA.

well, i dreamt i was doggone pregnant!
like for a few weeks or something like that,
and there was a little bump in my tummy.
I mean seriously.
it was horrifying.
and
well,
i guess i was too caught up in calculating how the hell am i supposed to make it in time for A's and my Uni admissions and all that with a huge belly, that i didnt hear the alarm ring.

and like, the horror of horrors was the part where there was this machine, that apparently could sieve out the possible fathers,

and then,

this old man's face flashed on and i nearly died man!

like WHAT.
can't they like give me at least someone PLEASANT.

what a dream to start of day one eh.

anyway,
after my horrendous dream and the confiscation of my ezlink card to be scanned,
i was late for this meeting i had after assembly.
so i barged into the LT, profusely apologising to the teacher in front as I and ran up the stairs and I looked for a seat.
then the disgusting feeling of embarrassment filled the air as I heard the teacher in front speak into the microphone

"Jia Li, you're in the wrong LT."

I was begging to be shot man.
the LT was semi-filled with sniggers as I apologised once more, half laughing in nervousness while attempting to shrug off the embarrassment and left to run to the OTHER LT where the meeting took place. I barged once again, into an LT full of wide-eyed individuals, apologised profusely again for being late and sat down for 2 minutes before the meeting ended.

- -

seriously.

well, at least my new form teacher's cool. can't say the same about my new hist or lit teacher though. I really find it unfair that we are the only class that has to change so many teachers. and we're the only class that has kept intact all the way up!

oh bollocks.

2009-01-07T07:38:00.000-08:00

ok, so i haven't exactly been updating. haa.
well, the past few days I've been really occupied by school stuff.
conducted the ogl workshop. it was, relatively alright.
except for the homework check at the end, and the super long days.
then met up with Dom like, at the end of everyday. so that was great.
thank you. (:

problem is with work.
school work.
lots of work.
and i'm so gonna die when school starts.
):

ah.
well.
in this state,
i really have nothing to say.

..except that my eyes hurt.

AHAHAHHA.

bye.

miss you too Serene!
Love you!
Take care.
Ignore Alien.

and thanks, for everything the past few days.
the really funny argument over money.
the stories.
the walks.
and just for basically being there.

2009-01-01T05:20:00.000-08:00

So, it's the start of the New Year, everythings the same as usual. And well, there's not much of a difference as yet. Things are becoming really monotonous. And, it makes you kinda wonder. Is this what life's really meant to be? Everyone has their problems, every era has the bad and good. "you'll have to learn to adapt" says dad. a common response to my numerous musings about life in the past and how I wish I was born earlier (yes, greatly influenced by the nonsense on the telly, and novels, usually that of a first-person narrative.) ahh. but oh well. they had their nonsense too.

--------

This morning, (very early morning) I was sitting at my table, just staring into space, and I heard this low howling of the wind outside. several times. it was kinda creepy. but it brought back memories, about how xiu and I used to play when we were young. We were so into the movie "twister", that everytime there was a storm coming, we used to pretend it was that, and like start getting out our gadgets and running for cover. AHAHAHA. Sounds silly now that I think about it. But yea. We had many games. And due to the small age gap, we were like the only two playing and we'd have a ball of a time. AHAHA.

and i'm suddenly in the mood for reminiscing.

I suddenly. remember lotsa stuff. Like how, we'd take out those straw mats to sit out in the balcony and pretend we're having tea with our stuffed animals. We'd have to climb out my brothers window, coz ours was grilled. (girls room, and apparently the alarm doesnt extend till there or something like that,) so, climbing through brothers window = going into brothers room = getting badly badly scolded if we get caught. And i remember not getting caught. until my ass of a cousin/ neighbour decided to be a d*** as he always is, and told my brother. got it real bad. - -

of course, there was the sneaking over to my cousin/neighbours place when we were much much younger. i thought she was being nice when she gave us those little knick knacs. but after a while, i grew up, and realised she was just getting rid of her trash. i grew up. and i'm happy i did. (:

yes. i'm so bitter right now.
they stole our Alvin and the Chipmunks tape and they claimed it to be theirs! what crap!

##############
ok,
so.

on to happy memories.

...

like how we got our dog! :D
my lovely Duchess.
I was 7, my dad was in Aust (had to do some business stuff and stuff with the house there) and, well, my old dog Coco (stray old silky terrier) had passed away. and well, my uncle called on night, and told us his in-law's dog has given birth to puppies! :D long story short, she came, and when my dad returned, he got the shock of his life. WAHAHAHA.

Also, when we were younger, my sisters and I used to rearrange our bedroom furniture. (i.e. just our beds. - -) into like obstacle courses, so we'd run around and jump over and on all of the beds. We'd seriously just race about and the adrenaline rush was awesome! (:

I remember we had an obsession with camping and tents, and once, I designed and constructed this tent made out of our extra blankets, (with our beds underneath so it was uber comfortable! :D) and when my sisters came back we just kept talking and playing all night long. The tent lasted for about a couple of days before my mom insisted for it to be taken down :/ hahahaha.

ohhh! and there was always story time at night! until I was 4 or something. HAHA. we'd curl up beside my mom. and she'd read to us. then, gradually, my older sister would do her own school stuff and it'd only be me and xiu. and then we stopped altogether. i wonder why.

but i remember reading to xiu all those Enid Blyton stories before bed after we stopped with mom. i had this obsession of becoming a teacher. i duno why. but i used to play teacher so so much. I remember all my siblings playing the role of my students before. HAHAHA. including my brother coz that day i had no students except stuff toys. but he was nice enough to sit in. (:

ok.
i think i've revealed quite a lot for now.

HAHA.

Happy New Year.

(:

2008-12-31T06:41:00.000-08:00

you know, i dont understand.
how it always progresses
from

happy.
happy.
to, that. i duno.

well. i think. one of the most painful things. i've felt.
is the indifference.
like.
when one's happy and excited.
like,
when I am happy and excited. haha,
then comes family. with weirdness. and painful crap.
so.
its like.
why dont you let me-
out.
where, people

bother?

so.
it's been another year.
last year, i counted down, with that warm and fuzzy feeling inside.
this year,

im hoping.
my last hour and 7 mins would provide that same

lovely
feeling.

thanks.
dom.
for cheering me up.

and the rest.
of my friends.
for every good time.
bad time.
every
time
we've had this year.

happy new year.
in advance.

may it be better than this year.

and, for the sake of 2008,

i'll end with a smile.

..

(:

2008-12-31T05:33:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE! (:

2008-12-30T07:23:00.000-08:00

OK.

resolutions

1) spend more time with family.
2) STUDY & do well. study. study.
3) prioritize. time. time.
4) get off the comp!
5) stop going out
6) pay MORE attention to my poor dog.
7) save money
8) cook new dishes
9) play new songs
10) like, exercise.
11) stop all distractions. (you can be a pianist, a chef, a singer, ... a violinist .. a drummer, someone with an incredibly nice body, ... someone who goes out alot, ... a girlfriend, ... AFTER YOUR STUPID EXAMS.)

COME ON MAN.

a's
a's
a's
a's
a's
a's

they're like less than a friggen year away.

2008-12-28T06:54:00.000-08:00

ah.
so.
i
did
some
work
today.
and
i'm
going
to
buy
my
rank
tomorrow.
and
dom
came
over
to
play
awesomely
on
the
piano.
again.
and.
and.
and.

.
.
.
bye.

2008-12-27T01:21:00.000-08:00

I was just looking at my blogskin. And (although I realised this when I chose it.) the words started to bug me. I duno. I always have been somewhat easily annoyed when weird words spoil something. its like some automatic response. AHAHA. But someone brought up the words on my blogskin so, yea. I'd just like to clarify, that it does not matter, the words on the skin. just what the entire thing looks like. Coz many have already been sorta "messed up" by words that don't make sense.

*i would say, if you take a look at the words, and you take it in as if it were fitting in my situation, as if i would say such a thing, then i should let you know, you are gravely mistaken. although independence is great, and of vast importance, (especially to me,) i wouldn't say stuff like. "oh, i'm happy and smiling coz im not in love with anyone."

like. - -

AHAHA.

ok. so supposedly, supposedly. I was meant to start work today. but no. it was Spring Cleaning day! so. there's not much i could do. hahahahhaa.

lying to yourself is the worst.

anyway, off to Aunt's Christmas Party soon!
its been a while.

*sorry am unable to attend NCC's, and Bjorn's BBQs.

dad's good mood period's over. well, i was kinda suspecting that a few days back. but it's become official. AHAHAHA.
he was grumbling about how we dont help out around the house. and that we're all lazy arses.

WELL I BEG TO DIFFER POPS!

grumble all you want, and compare all you want.

I'm not them,
they're not me.
go get them to be your kids.
and I BET I HAVE SOMETHING MORE, SOMETHING MUCH MORE than those you claim to be great shit.

now i just hope that i'll be able to make it.

EDIT:
Ok, i've just returned. AND I MISS MY COUSINS AND AUNT AND UNCLE SO SO MUCH! THEY'VE CHANGED! in physical appearance mostly. but they're still so so awesome. miss them already. ):
update!. I've opened all of my Christmas presents!

THANK YOU: -

Sherilyn: for the pretty pretty Christmas card! (: awesomeness.
Darren: for the closest thing to Shadowfax you could find - EYORE! (: &for the lovely drawing.
Zi Xuan: for the notebook thats real cute and the pretty candle holder. (:

Serene: for my very very first recipe book. seriously unexpected and seriously loved. (:

Hong Cherh (my secret santa!) : for the pretty bangles and earrings! (:

Shao Hui: for the choosing the pretty bangles and earrings! (: &for your tasty gingerbread man!(:

Yun He: for the lovely music box thingy! (: ...that plays "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" HAHAHA.

Aunty Leng + Family: for my new and very pretty letter opener. (:

my letter opener. AHAHAHA.

2008-12-26T04:40:00.000-08:00

so it started off as the suck-iest boxing day ever.

will not go into the details, but i missed my juniors POP. and i feel HORRIBLE.

SORRY GUYS!!!
it still bugs me

the whole day was very messed up.

the only time things started looking up for a bit was when i was playing with Xiu and the trolley and we spun round and round and round.

then it was, alright.

but, towards the end, everything got better.
i had a great time! (:

and IP MAN is AWESOME.

realise, I don't usually comment well / much on movies..?

it's time for a change.

go historybears!

CONGRATULATIONS MY DEARS, YOU'RE NOW DELTAS'

^^

EDIT:

I've got Christmas Eve Photos!! (Everyone was supposed to wear sleep wear. ... few accommodated.)

Love Love you guys!

Our log cake

Thanks CH for allowing me to do the honours.
Haha.

According to the photographer (Eugene,)this has a "YueNiang" feel to it. AHAHAHA.

Leo's thumb game!

Candid.

Us.

2008-12-24T18:28:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

yesterday was so so so so awesome! ^^
I went over to CH's early coz had to help with prepping the food. (I made Coleslaw hahaha.) And, (whether its a good thing or not, I'm still not sure,) CH and HC both helped with the preparation. One was in SAW mode while holding a big KNIFE, and the other was.. shredding carrots messily. HAHA. But they helped get things done rather fast. Though it was HIGHLY dangerous, coz of the Saw obsessed twits and their sharp tools. HAHAHA.

AC came later. We were initally watching the Sound of Music. Then, after that it was only ME trying desperately to watch the movie. But wouldn't let me with all their disturbing. The rubberband pulling and the blocking of the screen with their oh-so-awesome broadness. - - SO ANNOYING. And stupid CH could only lie on his bed and not help. So I pushed him off. HAHA. -With a good intention! (of giving him the momentum to start rolling off TO GET ME ANOTHER HAIR TIE) After a while, they left me alone, without my rubberband and I was happily watching my movie. THEN SUDDENLY, the three musketeers came in and started attacking me with bolsters! LIKE WHAT!

So we were running around and fighting for abit. Then them three started wrestling among themselves and pulling dunno who's pants. It was rather hilarious. But I haven't wrestled in such a long time. (i mean playfully of course.) Miss it actually, seeing them play like that. (excluding the pulling of pants.) So, it was.. yea. fun. BESIDES THE PART WHERE WE WERE LOCKED IN THE ROOM, AND STUPID CH sabo-ed ME. \=<

Then the others started arriving and the usual fun began. Just the company of each other and all the random noise. I learnt the very very first part of "You and Me" on Guitar! :D Thanks to CH and HC for teaching me. (: But my fingers kinda hurt after that. * * So i stuck to piano, and tried playing "If We Hold On Together" with HC and his guitar as accompaniment. CH played too while we tried "Canon".

Dinner was great. And the coleslaw was edible. I think, it's cause not many knew what happened to it under CH's hands. LITERALLY. haha. We had awesome cocktail, laptop with "Naruto" in the living room, Christmas songs and singing in CH's room and people talking in between. HAHA. Then CH's room became the movie room, screening (yes, AGAIN) SAW 5. There was mahjong outside, but soon everyone retreated and crowded in the dark, enclosed area concentrating on that one little laptop screen. Everyone was quiet, with the occasional random comment. HAHAHA.

Later that evening we had 'Secret Santa!' :D AND MINE WAS HC! and he had to wrap my present in so many layers of newspaper just to fatten it up. - - I was so eager to just rip the whole thing apart! But it had words on every layer, and it took so long! @.@ AND IT WAS SHAO HUI'S IDEA!!!! HAHAHAHA. Thanks HC for the gift, and trying to find out what things I like. And thank's Shao Hui for CHOOSING the gift! :)

LOVE YOU GUYS!

Stayed up quite late with them before dad came pick me up. we were playing the thumb number game that Leo taught. AHAHA. That was fun. and mahjong. and. ahh, everything.

They all came.

JOEL
AC
Vic
Nora
Shao Hui
Reb
Jac
Leo
Eugene
Wasi
HC
Ian
Serene
Sya

I WANT TO GO BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

We had MUSIC!
We had PRESENTS!
We had LOG CAKE!
We had 'CHRISTMAS CAROLERS"
We had no countdown, but Christmas greetings!

and just GREAT GREAT friends spending a GREAT GREAT time.

**
Just ended a vid call with Shao Hui, CH and HC. I want to go overrrr. :(:(:(
& they've got my Candy cane and Salt and Vinegar chips!!!

ZOUNDS.

LOVE YOU GUYS.

THE USUALZ SHOULD NOT BREAK CH.

LOVE YOU GUYS.

LOVE YOU GUYS.

2008-12-22T04:59:00.000-08:00

YAY, today was terrific! :D Met up with Serene, and also exchanged some Christmas gifts. So, only a couple left to do. And we bought all the food for the Christmas party and Dom came over and played so tremendously well on the piano. **so so envious. S:

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

it was so fun.

thanks ! (;

2008-12-21T06:52:00.000-08:00

Tang Yuan! Badminton! and Cupcakes!

to end, for dinner.

Happy 'Dong' guys!(:

2008-12-20T01:53:00.000-08:00

I caught 'Twilight' yesterday.

Well, the movie, was alright. Ehh.. but a little disappointing I guess. .. ok, wait, I shall not elaborate. I'll prolly like explode with all the things I want to say. (or rather protest about.) HAHAHA.
But I had a rather nice time out. Good fun.

(:

After the movie, met up with Mom and Xiu to do a little 'shopping'. But wasn't in too good a mood after that. Its the whole, 'sale' with 'many many people in the store' and 'absolutely crappy store music' combo. It justs gives you a bad headache and a crappy mood. Plus I was super tired after running around the whole day. The train ride on the way home was especially agonizing. But, somehow, after that. It was ok. COZ DAD BROUGHT US FOR SUPPER AT THE PRATA HOUSE!!! (which, is.. like what, opposite.) HAHA. But, yea. we don't do that often.

After that, I decided to complete this personal little project I was working on. And I finished it at about 3. Sadly, it didn't turn out as planned. And there's only one word that can describe it. 'Deformed'. So, I went to bed heartbroken and utterly dissatisfied. ):

Today's fine though. I made this 'Butterhead Lettuce' drink which btw, is CONSUMABLE, and tastes rather nice. I was trying to emulate the kind that can be found at grocery stores like Carrefour and NTUC and other juice stores. Well, they come in really small bottles and are quite expensive. I remember the first time I drank it, I was still quite young. And, being the kind who sorta detests veggies, I wanted to like throw the sample cup at the woman who gave it to me to try. (that's coz she told me it's very nice, and said you can't taste the veggie taste. WHAT A LIE! - I am reasonable.) HAHAHA. But that didn't happen. (:

So, yea. I have no idea how or why. But I had this craving for it. And so I just picked up the ingredients I read at the back of one of them bottles at the store, and made one batch. Tasted pretty good actually. (; Change from the other drinks and stuff I usually make.

OH, and this morning, I was playing the piano while waiting for my dad to pick me up to go grocery shopping, and I was in this weird nice mood and so I started like improvising and stuff and it sounded so so awesome awesome and I got interrupted by my dad and then when i came back i could do it no more. T.T

Ta!

I'm in a muse -add a- book mood.

2008-12-17T22:29:00.000-08:00

so... updates,

got them pics from at Sneha's place.
unfortunately, all fun and embarrassing moments could not be captured in a few photos. so vids will -again unfortunately (for the interested) - be found ONLY on facebook. as I would very much like an attempt to conceal all possibly "unglamorous" moments.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
(also possibly too lazy.)

moving on.~

Christmas wish list! HUZAAA! :D
(things partially attainable. not like that of my list on msn.)

*not in order of preference, but in the order of.. however it comes out in my head. AHAHAHA.

1) ipod touch!
2) new awesomely cool backpack!
3) pretty pretty dress(es)!
4) funky (white or black based) sneakers! = NOT ENTIRELY WHITE OR BLACK (unless they're pretty.) -so that I can use em' for school next year.
5) an awesome Christmas hits CD!
6) live performance from one musically inclined!
7) piano lessons!
8) my own room!
9) huge kitchen complete with stainless steel kitchen equipment!
10) dinner with all the USUALZ! + being able to stay for countdown.(:
11) something sincere.
12) a ball python or a bearded dragon!
13) shiny black pumps! that ..aren't too high?
14) growth by 4cm!
15) longer holidays!
16) an adventure! -seriously-
17) a hoodie! a nice one!
18) prince charming
19) wonderful date with prince charming

lastly,

20) good ol' family, happy as always!~

went to an chun's concert last night. loved the conductor's eccentric character. the concert was... alright. but.. could've been better. the saxophone soloist was... AMAZING. loved "imagine" by John Lennon. the other two clarinetists, were.. ok i guess, not excellent but not very bad either.
Loved James Barnes 3rd Symphony! Especially the third movement. AHH....

met with dan and gab the day before. SAKAE with shao hui and chun han as well.(:
great fun!

and I bought stuffing!~ (:

i think , i'm going to spend the rest of my day reading.
(:

lovely day ain't it?

and HUZAH~ since i've completed P&P
so, 3 more to go.

"In vain have I struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you." - Mr Darcy

2008-12-13T05:47:00.000-08:00

zomg.

think i've been emotionally scammed,
again. =/

you think they're so nice to you and sweet and stuff. and then in the end its like, the same with everyone else.

or that they want something from you.

you know, there's all these stupid mixed signal stuff, but nothing ever is clear.

HAHAHA.
and then after long periods they just stick in your mind like darn parasites. (but this is about that of the past.)

thank god we're not that close.
& thank god i've learnt to keep distances.(:

~*******~

Today, and today's findings :

anyway, over the past few days i've been clearing up the house (well the outside at least.)

i swept the entire place, the area outside my gate alone resulted in four big bags of dry leaves and twigs. It's really as if the house has been vacant for months!
and today, i did some gardening with my mom and xiu. (outside as well.) we removed all the dry branches and stuff. re-planted some flowers and all that. pretty fun stuff. (:

and i found some little treasures as well.

At the bottom is the fruit of this random creeper. It grew so thick we could make Christmas Wreaths out of it. (: - unfortunately it had to go.

On the top is this random, beautiful weed. looks a tad bit like a white and pink version of the Clitora ternata.

Also, i came across this little white and black round insect. it's about 1mm wide and was actually stationary on the leaf. from far it looked like a little ladybug but the designs on its back were not spots. there was a black circle and another ring around it and it wasn't exactly round, but rather like octagonal. lol.

There was this miniature snail, translucent with a cone like shell, like those you find on beaches. these are pretty common in the soil, but i guess not really noticed.

And there was this other insect that had this shiny thing sticking out of its back and it just looked so so pretty.

a few days back I also went to Sneha's place. Here's a picture of the pretty pretty bangles I picked out. Thanks Sneha. (:

(They're all the way from India!)

to end off, here's something interesting while picture surfing.

2008-12-10T04:47:00.000-08:00

It's Dom's Birthday today! :D

And I watched the movie "Bolt" which wasn't too bad (but would've been better in 3-D /+ )
Still , thanks for the wonderful time!
*And the dressing up!

and, yesterday, I had a really wonderful time at Sneha's! She bought us BANGLES FROM BANGALORE! :D I chose pretty rainbow colours and I can't stop admiring them shiny thingys.
It was nice, just us girls playing twister and truth or dare, dancing, singing and going completely wacky. (And we videoed it too! X= ) anyways, will upload the crazy stuffs when Sherilyn does.

HAHAHAHAHA.

I'm so positively happy these few days. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOM! ^^

2008-12-08T02:09:00.000-08:00

Main topic of the day: Weather.
The weather today = awesomeness.

As my moods are easily influenced by the weather, one thing you should know that very hot humid days (mostly) make me very lethargic, crappy and unfriendly. (:
as for today's weather and mood on the other hand, well would be depicted as a scene of me on a float on clear water, head back on hands, legs lazily paddling in the water, drifting.. laughing quietly to myself, drifting.. drifting and then SUDDENLY PLUMMETING DOWN 50-STOREY HIGH WATERFALL!

actually, no. but that would've been fun though.

unfortunately, today's mood. was just, that first part.

I've been rather happy, occasionally laughing to myself when I think of silly things.
yea, it's a "I don't have a care in the world, I've got great weather!"day

Chilly and breezy, kinda brings that whole Christmas-y feeling to ya. The drizzle is like, Singapore snow. HAHA. you stand outside, allow the water droplets to spray in, allow the breeze to just carry you away, and you forget that this IS Singapore coz the weather is just so darn awesome! and your worries just.. fade away. and nothing else matters.

*automatically 'Song from a Secret Garden' plays.

-Actually, the weather does differ greatly to the snowy areas, but heck, it's the closest we can get ain't it?

So I put on some Christmas tracks and just fluttered around the living room with Xiu and started preparing it for Christmas. (:

we did up the tree, the Staircase, and I made a wreath. (: but it's really really small and not really nice due to lack of materials. (I just used those extra ones we didn't put elsewhere round the house.)

Anyways, this year's theme is RED & GOLD. A classic Christmas. (:

Here's the tree, complete with Candy canes! :D
[but unfortunately without presents ): ]

Here's two of my cat.

If you look really carefully, you'll be able to see my cat hiding. That sneak crept in the Christmas Tree

box when no one was looking. Haha.

And here he is when he's caught and being chased out for packing.

For once -in quite a while- I've finally managed to include some emotion into the pathetically easy songs I play. (:

i actually had randomly created lyrics than ran smoothly in my head for "Ice Dance" -Danny Elfman.
it all centered around ... "Come out and play"

it's nice, at least it doesn't sound like an angsty, puberty-driven teenager ranting on the piano to the neighbours.

lol.

Enjoy whats left of the wonderful day guys. (:

2008-12-06T17:16:00.001-08:00

So im just avoiding the fact i have to do work.
(x

from Darren-

The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic. (this year at least)
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugarI have
I have alot of friends -relative to definition of 'friends'
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone. -it's alright i guess
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. heh.
I love to shop.
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God- depends again
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. unless they're close friends.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie. (Downloaded)
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. does it count if I just still love his songs?
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!!
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. to me its major
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies - some are nice
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal i've ever written in
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood
I wear a toe ring
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

STAB 5 PPLEZ
Shao Hui
Sofia
Timothy
Dan
Ryan

2008-12-06T00:29:00.000-08:00

The morning started off well.
I was in the whole "Christmas" mood, (:
-humming and whistling, and everything was fine and dandy.

i did the laundry,
started boiling ingredients for lunch
and then went grocery shopping with mom
on the way back i already planned on mopping up and setting up the Christmas tree (coz it's getting pretty late.)

but well, again.
rather pissing day,- now at least.
(and i'm sorry to have to rant and rave,)

dad brought up this article that this other 17 year old wrote.
kept asking me to see how he wrote his argument,
how well read he is
how he challenged this professor.

ok, seriously, i'm glad for the smarty. but whoa. after that i got the whole "stop spending time on the piano and stop doing this and doing that" and its just getting - again- annoying. and, this is all i seem to be these few days- annoyed.

of course i still have my periods of happy, high times.
but they're running dry.

~*******~

i mean, it cut man.

" I bet you don't even understand 10 percent of what he wrote in the article."

DAMN, DO I SEEM THAT DIM TO YOU.

and,
he can use all the flowery language he wants.
coz i do not admire this sort of writing style.
(kudos to that guy to have that knowledge and all, and no offence.)
but I enjoy reading what I ENJOY reading,
and yes, politics and other recent, worldly events are important.
and I WILL get to that -eventually-
but its a totally different thing when I say i dislike certain writing methods,
it's how the writer puts himself/herself across.
people can use bombastic terms and still come across as an amiable individual.

and sure, im not smart and not well read and all that jazz

but
please,

just
stop

looking down on me man.

argh. i'm going to watch Pride and Prejudice.

=/

the Christmas tree deserves to be put up in a happy, festive, celebratory atmosphere.
i'm not touching her yet.

Playing:
Get up
Come on
Why're you scared?
You' ll never change what's been and gone

2008-12-05T07:15:00.000-08:00

ok, i can't really think of anything, coz my brain's basically dead. but, from the top of my head,

I did the filming for orientation yesterday.
me has super speed.
therefore,
to show my superpower,
i had to run round the track about what, 6 TIMES!

and today, my pathetic body's aching all over.

and then, Gerald (my junior) proposed me joining Muay Thai with other juniors. so i thought.

"wait, why not!"

Thats the decision for today! :D

mom wants to watch Jacky Cheung with mom.

LATE NIGHT FRIDAY MAN!

hahahahahhahahhahahahhaa.

2008-12-04T01:16:00.002-08:00

ZOMG. Can't believe it man.

1. The person who tagged you is ? Dan

2. Your relationship with him/her ? awesome random dude friend.

3. Your 5 impression of him/her ? cool, hilarious, artistically inclined, random, someone special I guess.

4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you ? something special.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you ? I duno, "I will drug you"?

6. If he/she become your lover, you will ? ..

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? Nothing.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ? (xx)

9. If he/she dies, you will ? ..Be very upset.

10. What is it you want to tell he/she now ? Dude lets meet up!

11. Your overall impression of he/she ? interesting.

12. How do you think people around you will feel ? fulfilled?

13.The characters you love of yourself are? no go.

14.ON the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are ? need the push.

15.The most ideal person you want to be is? Mom

16.For people that care and likes you,say something to them. Thank you.

17.Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you.

1. Ryan
2. Sofia
3.Shao Hui
4. Darren Lee
5. Chun Han
6.Serene
7.Dominic
8. Timothy
9. Dan
10. Irfan

18.Who is no.6 having a relationship with? No one?

19.Is no.9 a male or a female? Male

20.If no 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? That would just be wrong.

21.What is no.2 studying all about? Econs Lit and Hist

22.When was the last time you chatted with no.3? A LONG time ago.

23.What kind of music band does no.8 likes? I have no idea actually. Chinese music? I duno. oh but some english ones too. oh wait, i think mostly english. yea, (:

24.Does no.1 have any siblings? yeap.

25.Will you woo no.3? Sure, why not.

26.How about 7? haha.

27.Is no.4 single? Think so.

28.What is the surname of no.5? Ong

29.What is the hobby of no.10? Working out, ALOT these few months.

30.Does no.5 & 9 get along? yeap! (;

31.Where is no.2 studying at? AJC

32.Talk about something for no.1? nice guy.

33.Have you tried developing feelings with no.8 ? eh.. no?

34.Where does no.9 live in? opposite Xin Min

35.What colour does no.4 likes? Green?

36.Are no.1 and 5 bestfriends? alright i guess.

37.Does no.1 have any pets? Don't think so?

38.Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world? eh..

39.What is no.10 doing now? Prolly working out or something.

40. Who is the coolest person in the world? my bro.

2008-12-03T05:29:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHA.

I've finally finished my Robin's Hat and Bird handler's glove.
Turned out pretty alright I think. (:
(did the hat first. but you know how blogger is.)

here's the process:

Complete Glove

YAY! :D

So proud.

I just like, wasted one entire day.

But it was so so fun! Just music, and myself. I'd do it all over.

I think, in light of recent events, that I'm more cut out to be a homemaker.

I'm born centuries too late. ):

2008-12-02T03:09:00.000-08:00

awesome this guy is.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMXccLCXO-Y

go! go! go!

2008-11-28T06:07:00.000-08:00

The day before yesterday was my "day out with some people I haven't seen for a long time."

met with Zi Xuan (someone from my CLT course last year) for lunch,
then met Chun Han for an afternoon of 'Friends' and 'Power Rangers' -his toddler cousins are so super cute! :D
and went back with Dom (another from CLT course last year) - he had to pass me his parade video, - which btw is super cool and elaborate with many nice shots and I feel so darn jealous! :(

anyways, it just finally offically hit me that the hols are here and well, that two weeks have past ALREADY. like blooody hell thats quick! :(

i've given up staying pissed at dad coz it'll do nothing, so i'm talking to him again- very gradual process, but yesterday when all of us went out, he seemed fine already. so, hoo0-ray. (:

did lotsa house work during the whole 'Cold War' process. I guess that kinda cheered him up.
and now, the floors are all squeeky clean -inside and out- and my room's rather neat too.

here are some not very nice photos - but photos nontheless - of the 'after' :)

yes, i do have a shelf for NCC- geek as it may sound.

Something I found- I used this when I was studying for Chinese O's.

Stacks- most of which are O level stuff.

HAHA.

2008-11-24T06:31:00.000-08:00

well today was a shitty day.

i had four stupid moments all within the hour i woke up.

the annoying thing was the fact that i had to wake up early to go over to CH's to borrow his thumbdrive coz i needed one and couldn't find mine- which i found later on the way to his house which was in the front pocket of the bag i NEVER use-how did it get there you ask? well i have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA.

Stupid moment no 1: I was looking at the bus routes although i already knew i could take more or less all the buses there. and then, i missed the bus I could take, and waited incredibly long for another bus to even pass by.

Stupid moment 2: i ended up taking the wrong bus. despite the fact i could take almost all buses- so i walked a fair distance to his bus stop,

Stupid moment 3: I pressed the 'green man' button at the crossing while waiting for CH to cross the distance between us (coz i thought it would take a while before the green man actually comes on.) - but like all other ironic instances, the green man shone the moment i pressed the button and all the cars halted abruptly to a stop -while CH was still strolling across- and the many drivers looked at me expecting me to cross. luckily some random guy did cross or I'd be wasting their time.

Stupid moment 4: not being able to formulate a proper sentence to the first person that i spoke to. i said "wow, i had several stupid moment.'' and then i repeated myself coz i left out the 'S' -in momentS- but the same sentence slipped out 3 times. and i was like - WTF-.

went for CCA meeting. am 2IC for some stupid event - although I did the first proposal for it. wasn't present for submission date coz i was overseas and guess what. ic copied and pasted my entire first part of proposal as her own and when explaining to teachers talked her way through as if she did know what was written and smoked like nobody's business. when she in actual fact just copied and pasted. and THEN, when there was a road block she would say, oh i don't know, Jia Li what's this? LIKE WTF WTF WTF!!!!

d8#)I@*40-0#$)(%

AND THEN i came home, decided to walk my dog, and everytime we head in the direction of home she would be stubborn and not budge. and after an hour of aimless walking, she decided to halt in the path of a turning car. So i had to carry her away and spend the bulk of my time standing in front of people's houses trying not to look like a suspicious idiot.

After all that was done, I came home tired and rather -dirty, set the table and called them down for dinner -which was meant to be good- after eternity they came down one by one.

dad was first and he said "jia, you use that table the most, can you please clear it up." he was referring to the dining room table which i last used when i was studying for my CHINESE A'S. I told him i ha vent used that table in duno how long and he said "but all your things are still there" LET'S SEE, out of lets say 27 items, 3 of them are mine! I admit, i left my water bottle and school skirt there before i brought Duchess out. But he says he's seen my skirt there for 3 days! I HAVEN'T USED MY SKIRT SINCE A WEEK BEFORE SCHOOL ENDED UP TILL TODAY! guess who the rest of the mess was made by.

&$($(*#593

Then, sister came down all bubbly and happy coz she's well loved and i got bloody pissed coz i knew who the rest of the mess was made by. Dad then said "can you clean your room" and mind you i had that thought in my mind for the past few days but never got the chance coz im always doing some other crap so i told him, I was going to and he said "thats what you always say"

#*$((*#4gsi)#*583 LEAVE ME ALONE!

THE ROOM IS NOT ONLY MINE AND GUESS WHO LEAVES CLOTHES STREWN ON THE FLOOR. GUESS WHO LEAVES BOWLS AND CUPS ON THE TABLE.

but he kept going on. I snapped at sister for annoyance sake. and got scolded a whole lot.

#(#%*$jDA*E03

went upstairs to clear my face.

came down, brother talked at the table , asked me something.
sentences were messed up so he said whats wrong with you
and they couldn't hold back
dad started scolding
saying i'm not resilient
and all that*##*%

bro and mom asked him to keep quiet
no difference though.
breathing was difficult
i was the loudest at the table

(FYI: It's NOT the kinds that people with anger management issues cause-
it's the kinds that come about when one is distraught.)

and during my time at the table,
an the entire situation,
emotions and all
poured out in one NEAT poem.

in my head

I swear- if only i'd written it down.

AND HOW THE HELL DID PROSE PROCEED TO STANZAS

#*%gru$#59huZG)%)%T& *$

I don't apologize if this doesn't make sense, coz I don't think anyone does.

so shoo off your shoes.

2008-11-23T05:45:00.000-08:00

Cable car to Xue San (:

Night at Penny's & Yi Ting's room.

Heh.

Xue San.

Secondary School students.

No.14 High School.

Roomate!

Lao Shi & Germaine - At Shi Lin

Don't laugh.

Some China shots.

-which reminds me, I have a Chinese essay due.

)=

2008-11-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

Ok, so i haven't been in the highest of spirits lately. i think it's possibly due to the entire moping around thingy. it only gets worse and worse every single day! and i think that this effect just snowballs and makes you feel worse than it already does. I need to get up and do something about this man. So, yea. I've thought about it, and have now decided to make a list - my "to get this outta my system" list. (:

Firstly, CLEAN THE BLOODY HOUSE.
ok, seriously without the maid and with everyone constantly busy, the house isn't getting enough attention. The poor beauty is just sitting here and not displaying her fullest potential. -which i shall attempt to bring out over the next few days.

The living room shall be my first target. Washing of the sofa and pillow covers, dusting and sunning of the pillows, vacuuming of the carpet and wiping of the coffee table. I have insisted on investing in cup coasters but no one listens! So, I shall have to do the honour of bringing back some pretty ones! :)

A TRIP TO IKEA IS IN ORDER!

- - Anyway, back to my list. - -

Secondly, START REGULARLY EXERCISING
I went jogging yesterday -my first in a VERY long time- and I realised how much my fitness has dropped! I am SHOCKED! Seriously, I have absolutely NO idea when this came about! And now I feel totally.. :S

So, I guess, Wednesdays and Fridays. & Mondays out with my dog. That should do for now.

Thirdly (and temporarily lastly,) STOP STARING AT ALL SCREENS DISPLAYING IMAGES THAT KEEP MANY ENTERTAINED FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME AND THAT MAKE YOUR EYES AND HEAD HURT THEREAFTER.

The computer and telly. After using them I just feel like i need to go to sleep. And that's when time's wasted and lethargicness arises.

AH. well time for bed.
Rather abrupt ending to the post.
but it's 12. and the Internet gets cut off.

TA!~

2008-11-18T16:44:00.000-08:00

Home.

but terribly tired.

firstly due to lack of sleep on first night I arrived home.
secondly due to lack of sleep subsequently.
thirdly due to continuous ramblings.
fourthly due to computer and television screens.
fifthly due to a messy room (which I packed BEFORE I left. guess what happened.)

i don't keep up appearances anymore
i feel like a slob.

dad's here.

goodbye.

2008-11-08T00:58:00.001-08:00

Hello world! (:

In approximately 12 and a half hours I'll be at Changi Airport awaiting my departure to Yunnan,China!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Ok, so I may be overreacting a little. But it's my first time OVERSEAS without Mom and Dad! And well. It's super exciting! HAHAHAHAHA.

Only problem is, ... well I haven't packed.

:S

- So much for Miss enthusiastic, :/
Spent the bulk of today at meetings and also met up with Ryan and Glenn. Still the same as usual. Holidays for them already and, I guess they're just really bored. heh. Lucky punks.

And somehow, always, before I leave for somewhere, for a while, I get hit by a strong overwhelming sense of nostalgia.

doubt you still feel it too.

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in thy head? I don't know what to think-"
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,

"Marry me, Juliet - you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'"

Bye! Bye! See y'all in 9 days!! :D

2008-11-07T06:34:00.000-08:00

Ah. today sucked big time. had CCA meeting. and went hungry. some people insisted on making my day worse. so, i just made them happy by remaining grumpy and grouchy. that was until I came back to the comfort of my home. Hunger pangs vanished and I was at once at ease. Strange how 'familiarity' affects you eh. It's like, when I'm home, I can just let loose, relax, and nothing matters. :) I got on my computer and went online, was greeted by several good friends. Engaged in a really, comfortable, funny and just a nice feel good conversation revolving around a werewolf, tape and cuffs. odd, but still. AHAHAHA.

NIGHT ALL!

it's gonna be fine.

2008-11-06T06:43:00.001-08:00

I told my dad that according to my friend, (who's dad is my teacher's friend) one of my teachers (that teacher,) said that our group's presentation was one of the best he'd seen. And well, my Dad's response was... basically, disinterest. He didn't respond.

guess he's still pissed for my coming home late + that my sister hasn't replied. or that he just doesn't bother. my guess is the latter.
AND, I DO NOT really REGRET the coming home late.

I had so much fun at Sofia's! with Jaswin and Sofia's siblings. We had a great day of baking and playing board games! (which Elson missed coz he had to accompany BOB. ><) But yea, I teamed with Sofia at first, against Sofia's siblings. Later when Jaswin came, those two ganged up on me and Sofia's siblings. ><>

2008-11-04T04:50:00.000-08:00

THANKS TO SOFIA FOR HELPING ME WITH MY NEW AWESOME LAYOUT!!! :D

LOVE YOU!

Well, PW's officially over and although I am relieved, I must say I am rather sad its .. gone. Well, first and foremost, my PW group is the awesome-mest of the awesome-mest, and we've became alot closer than I ever expected. They are truly a great bunch of highly interesting and highly intellectual characters which never fail to make me smile. I don't remember any time in which any argument has surfaced. I do know that all four of us are rather accommodating and work rather efficiently together, getting things done when required. (:

LOVE YOU GROUP! :)

spent whole of yesterday with PW group. played twister and such! Also had tremendous fun with hammy. (Sofia's hamster.)

AHHH.
lost mood for blogging. saw something disturbing. and well, letcha'll know another time.

YUN NAN THIS SUNDAY! :D
AND

Reading + music NOW!

ta guys!

2008-10-31T09:04:00.000-07:00

Ah, Halloween's just over.

And, instead of doing anything particularly interesting, I was at home. Watching random youtube videos and laughing myself senseless while my parents turned up the telly to drown out my laughter -that made no sense to them due to headphones.- Anyways, apart from that, i switched my itunes to my 'THE mood' playlist, which effectively lists all my Love songs, those that I feel have a really special tinge. Like those played during scenes that make you feel all fuzzy inside. Well, it was named 'THE mood' coz like half the list contained songs that I associated with scenes where people.. sorta.. made out. BUT, on the other hand. when you're completely not in 'THE mood' it can be renamed 'SAD F.M.' as that in Bridget Jones' Diary. Kinda pathetic eh.

Currently playing: When a Man Loves a Woman- Micheal Bolton

well, the other bulk of my time was spent completing my I&R. which I just sent to my PW teacher. She's gonna kill me I swear. I think I'm making her do lotsa overtime stuff. and I just remembered that she had a Doc's appointment today! Damn, now I feel like crap. :/

Went for lunch with 3/4 PW group with special guest appearances by Sharon and Pin Xuan. (: Nice, Cafe Cartel.

Late afternoon was spent searching for random pictures. I have this.. well not entirely obsession, but something like, a thing, for old ancient doors. Some of them are just SO SO SO beautiful. Another thing, Door knobs and of course, museum ceilings!!!

AWESOME AWESOME Stuff.
Shall put pretty ones up when I have time.

Anyway, I was also looking at pretty scenery pictures. And here's one I really like. Well, yea. the one on top.

wish I could stay there.

LOVELY. Absolutely. Lovely.

Good night..

2008-10-30T07:06:00.000-07:00

OMG

Chinese A's SUCKED ASS!

AND OMG.

NOTICE THE CHANGE IN LETTER.

" O's " sound so much nicer than " A's "

AHHHHHHHHHHh. I hate growing up.

After Feb next year I'll be able to go to jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaill.

(xx)

so much for my trespassing plans.

2008-10-27T07:10:00.000-07:00

This past week has been fairly entertaining. MANY outings with my awesome PW group + Pin Xuan (Well, many more than usual anyway.)

So,

I went to my first JC - guy- house!
Elson's place! It was sosososososo nice and neat and clean and COMFORTABLE! I swear he'd get a heart attack if he were to come to my home. X= Sofia and I watched Bridget Jones and Love Actually while Pin Xuan and Elson were in the other room playing their computer games. We were served awesome coffee made by Elson himself, and it was just... so so nice! I could just stay there forever man! HAHAHA. OH, and it was the first time, we -somewhat- actually hung out together. Usually there'd be this invisible divide between the guys and girls (NO IDEA WHY) but yea. Sofia & I sorta broke it on this day. + we went for Econs lecture! So we're good kids. :)

I also had WAFFLES and ICE CREAM! @ Gelare!
Expensive stuff but almost heaven! :D
Still owe Sofia 7 Bucks though. :S
Although it was a rather lethargic day, it was... quite well spent I guess. Again, we were with Pin Xuan & Elson.

Went to Pizza Hut with Fatmah, Small Shaun, Elson and Sofia. :) AWESOME TIME! We're planning to go catch Disney Live! and Avenue Q soon. I think it's gonna be a blast! :D We had to go back for Chinese lessons after lunch. That was a spoiler. BUT we managed to creep ourselves out and enjoy our time. My class (of 6 + Sofia) left the LT last coz we couldn't answer the Chinese teacher's question. BUT anyhoo, we spotted this door left ajar at the back of the LT-with the little ray of light shinning through- REALLY REALLY mysterious and drawing.- So, immediately after class, 6 of us (Hong Zhi went back) ran up to the back and check out the secluded place. [Sherilyn had earlier nicked a couple of packing foam doodles (or whatever they're called) from our Lit Texts Box and we were tearing them to pieces during Chinese.] We blew the bits of foam out of the window and watch the little pieces catch the wind and dance in the air. It brought peace. It really did. We returned to the dark LT and scared ourselves shit less while running down a creepy staircase. Childish as it may seem, it was good to have just a bit of good ol' fun.

Deepavali's @ Jaswin's!
GREAT FOOD! TWISTER WAS A BLAST! HINDI MOVIES ROCK!
:D

I'm really quite tired. I had been karaoke-ing two nights in a row (Sat + Sun) from 10 to 2 with my parents. AND I've really been neglecting Chinese.

Work just makes me feel sick now.

oh, yes. And I got advanced. Dad still hasn't seen the forms. I'm gonna die.

Right now, I'm supposed to be filling up some 'Personal Direction Form'
Gonna be a looooong night.

really, really possible to feel darn alone and not so alone at the same time.
AND IT SUCKS ASS.

2008-10-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

DOESN'T IT SUCK WHEN YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHERE TO GO AND WHAT TO DO.

I HATE WAITING FOR SHIT TO HAPPEN MAN.

I SHOULD HAVE TOOK THEM REINS.

I'd love to escape into some book. a fairytale. and just

GET LOST.

2008-10-20T01:59:00.000-07:00

Well. Finally had my rather rude awakening today.

Yes, we had the Principal's talk today. The one about our Promo results. I'm in the approx. 240+ in danger of being retained. And my results are messed up.

I didn't know I was that bad.

The rest in my class.. well most of them promoted effortlessly.
Well, yea, I knew they were so much better, but.
ahh.
I guess I didn't expect myself to suck THAT bad.

I need to get pw done.

and chinese.

and freaking finish 'Breaking Dawn' before I waste anymore time.

my week's gone.

9 days for a miracle.

2008-10-18T05:50:00.000-07:00

I've been COMPLETELY sluggish today. I wanted to wake up earliER than I have been doing the past couple of weekends, but I didn't. I set my alarm for 8 and I ended up waking up at 9! -to use the toilet- then I climbed back up to bed and slept straight for another three hours!

I woke up feeling guilty. But I just couldn't pull myself up and away. I sat up for a bit and stretched upright where "Breaking Dawn" was placed (at the foot of my bed) and lay back against my fluffy pillow as I opened the book and immersed myself in that alternate world for about forty five minutes before feeling the horrible strain in my neck and arms. I got off my arse and washed up -yes, pretty gross not doing that immediately when I awoke, but.. yea. AND I'm not usually like this.- After that I just went downstairs, put on some classics and continued with my book. It would've been much better if I was alone. Barely an hour into my reading session, I was interrupted and honestly, annoyed.

But, duty called.. and I had to help with the chores - which I have already been sorta neglecting in the past few days.- anyhoo, the day remained the same. with my parting from my unbelievably comfortable position to do occasional chores, and then returning to let my mind wander. Don't get me wrong, I still feel the same about the series, but it - as I've said- does serve as a feel good read, and gets you away from stuff. Relaxing actually.

Anyways, talking to my sister on Skype now. FINALLY. Miss her so much.

Dreamt I was driving. Heh. heh.

2008-10-17T08:20:00.000-07:00

Well, mood's been really inconsistent these few days. My PW group's going bonkers as well. One day we're fine, the next we're not. presentation today seemed fine though.

ANYWAY,
it was fun today! I went to Sofia's place for a movie and snacks and it was so so so so AWESOME! :D
We watched hairspray, exchanged views on discrimination and got all excited thinking about typical girl stuff. (as we always do :P) But it was nice. :)

After that, I went to Chun Han's to grab some movies, and met someone unexpected. It was awkward at first. But it became alright soon after, then he left.

I returned home to an empty house- I forgot my parents have dinner plans tonight, and Xiu's had night class- So, dinner and the empty house were.. comforting.. and well at least I have my pets.

AHHH

somethings wrong with me.

so many things running through now.

2008-10-13T06:36:00.000-07:00

It was a surprisingly pleasant day. Towards the end of the day anyway.

I woke up late this morning and was rushing frantically in order not to miss the bus. I skipped breakfast. The gate was jammed, so I scaled the wall and (to my amazement and satisfaction,) I managed to swiftly climb over the wall without any problems whatsoever. It was all done in a matter of seconds and was executed beautifully if I may say so myself. Haha. School was a drag. The magic within my PW group vanished. I have no idea why. It was rather long and draggy. Bright side: I've got Eclipse now.

The end of the day was nice however. After school I went for lunch with a couple of classmates. Reached home at about 5. I was in the mood for a walk. It was bright and burning. But with the occasional breeze it was lovely at the same time. I took Eclipse and just walked around aimlessly listening to classics on my phone. I got to a playground somewhere in my neighbourhood and just sat there for an hour or so. I just read. and lost track of time. It felt terrific! Going out, soaking up the sun! And doing nothing but getting absorbed into a totally different world. (Apart from the occasional dodging of the soccer ball that was constantly flying around,) I felt at ease. Something I haven't felt in a long time.

SidetracK:
Though I promised myself the first time I came across the title at the beginning of the year, that I wouldn't become one of the crazed, obsessed fans deeply in love with Edward Cullen. I've got to say that he is certainly and appealing character. However, the greatly alluring world of mythical creatures, is what I am more inclined to. I have become ... attached. Well I'm really sentimental I guess. Always have been. I duno if that's a good thing. Anyhoo, especially since this other world has such an appealing nature in contrast to what we have now, I guess, I sorta wish I was there. =/

The Twilight series is actually.. rather mediocre. The language used is... middling. There's not much range in vocabulary, and the same words are always used to describe the little details. I thought it would be much better if the descriptions and the way characters were depicted were more varied. At least there would be a better illustration of the characters. Looking at Edward's voice for example, it's always described as 'velvety' and laughs are always compared to 'chimes' and 'bells' and it gets, boring after a while. The first book did well in grabbing the readers' attention though. (Mine at least.) The rest of the series, as far as I know is pretty much, rather typical. So it kinda gets boring midway. But otherwise, I think it serves great as a feel good series. Also, I duno, but I do get really into the book sometimes. Just the storyline and stuff. It's good while you're reading it. But somehow, when you take a step back.. you see it different. It's also easy to understand I guess, which also adds on to the novels' attractiveness.

But,
I think it has become severely overrated. I feel weird just reading it now. =/
LIKE EVERY OTHER PERSON IS READING IT.

And I wanted to put it off till after Promos. =/

*And I know, I may be referred to 'other person' in light of another with the same comments.

oh well.

aftermath

2008-10-10T21:23:00.000-07:00

I had the most bizarre dream last night. I was in a performance. One of large scale. A dance actually. I can still remember it all rather vividly. The girls had to wear a red tee and black flowy pants the guys wore a grey top instead. The shoes were black with little shiny crystals embedded in two rows on the top. They were really pretty. Before the music came on we went into position. about 40 of us. It was a rather grand opening, with the girl in the middle being raised rather high up and the others with their arms raised at different levels as if in worship. There were blue lights and dry ice. It was dark, and the dance began. I did not play a major role. Just prancing around here and there. Though, I haven't danced for the longest time, this was especially exhilarating.

After that, it was a break before the actual thing began. We, (the rest of the dancers and I,) were bunching around the small spread provided to us by the crew. Strangely enough I was rather comfortable making small talk with all these people I have never met. Everything around me was dark and surprisingly not creepy in any way. I wondered away by myself after a while, with "Clair de lune" playing in the background. (I HAVE NO IDEA WHY.) I saw weird shaped grapes and colourful liquids in flasks on various tables. It was almost like a chemistry lab just formed. One more well stocked then those you see in schools.

We never got about the the official opening of the dance. Instead, I woke up and went back to sleep dreaming of playing netball once again. There seemed to be some form of argument on the court even before the game begun. So the game did not begin. But I missed HS. I woke up perspiring with my lips dry. My eyes still swollen from the night before. It was already 10, and I felt a tinge of guilt.

I miss my carefree times.
I feel a hole in my heart.
Over-dramatic. Maybe.

I'm going to edit my WR now.

2008-09-03T08:36:00.000-07:00

fried rice. (:

it was actually, quite nice.

if i do say so myself.

2008-09-03T08:15:00.000-07:00

so today was once again wasted.
I studied this morning. well i tried to anyway.
then I cooked lunch and rushed off to school.
after my lessons. I ran down to Amoy Quee.
Literally. ran. in the rain.
entire trip took me 20++ minutes.
it was my juniors passing out parade.
congratulations my dear STAFF SERGEANTS. (:
was stuck there up till 5.45 due to rain.
was cold in bus.
late for dinner.
got scolded.
dinner wasn't what i would've ate.
ate 'paos' instead.
watched 2 hours of 'Friends'
played the piano.
attempted improvising.
failed miserably.
though my other songs weren't as bad.
guess its coz i missed the feeling of those smooth pretty shiny keys beneath my fingers.
it just moved so naturally.
my parents came home.
i went up.
im here.
i'm going to sleep.

and yes, i can cook.
a picture just for kicks.

i'm on the highway to hell.

really.
and the song.
is.
very much amazing.

dumb sore throat.

i realise
i have
transformed.
into
a rather
negative
depressed person

no
i'm not
emo
i think that word is overrated
and i dislike the many that misuse it.
its annoying.

*Highway to Hell, AC DC

2008-08-28T06:41:00.000-07:00

Somewhat significant changes in my life:
in no order whatsoever.
coz life just ain't so.

I've lost an Aunt some time back.

my maid's gone- and mind you, i'm not some incompetent fool who knows not what to do with a broom and dustpan-

i found my love for literature. ..again.

my class rocks.

i studied and failed.

my once loved flew.

i've gained weight i won't lose.

i've made the '3 times late this term' list

my laziness has returned.

i'm once again obsessed with cliche movies/ films/ videos

i've learnt and almost mastered "Victor's Piano Solo" by Danny Elfman.- by myself, first time ever reading a score and not ABCs.

my sister left for Queen's.- exchange. i NEED to LEAVE.

i can't recall.
i'm tired.
it's 10.

it's been a while.

2008-06-11T18:52:00.000-07:00

THE 'O's! (:

last two days

2008-06-11T18:23:00.000-07:00

IT'S WEEK 3!!! AND I'M STILL OUT HAVING FUN!!! T.T

Tuesday.
Movie + Sushi

I FINALLY, FINALLY, Caught up with Dan (who went missing for a long period of time), Nigel (whom I also haven't seen in a while,) and Gabriel (who I don't usually hang out with but is a cool dude. (; ) Anyways, we went to watch "Made of Honour", your typical romance movie where the hot guy always gets the hot girl after a period of soul searching and some intense competition from some random rival. haha. Well, I wouldn't say the movie was bad, it was quite entertaining at cetain points, but pretty predictable. So it wasn't exactly fantastic either.
Moving on,
we went for Sakae Sushi after the movie, pretty much stuffed ourselves. We exchanged random gossip stories and just chilled. Dan and I were training our tea pouring skills. (: and I'm waaaaaaaayyyyyy higher than level 3! haha. It was an awesome day. Went to buy materials for Dan's new project. Dan's art rocks.

Wednesday.
Chinese Oral
Outing with the 'O's

I PASSED CHINESE ORAL!
HOW AWESOME IS THAT!
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!

I just have to read aloud more, to get the fluency thing going. Anyway, after oral I ran down to HS to help them paint the NCC room. Which was fuuuuuuuuun! (: until I got paint on my school uniform. = = Then I stopped and started roaming around the school with Chun Han.

Met Darren, he came back to collect his school leaving cert. We left for Bishan and met Markus, and ate Pizza Hut! We orderd the 4 person set lunch thing. (which we FINISHED) :S And as before, they would gossip explicitly about me, IN FRONT OF ME, and brush it off! ><>

We went to Bugis thereafter. Had to get some extra reads. They kept passing me all those random books on George Bush, Saddam Hussein and other stuff which I didn't need! Took us quite a while to leave. haha. We had NYDC mudpies! (: and those two didn't lemme have my share in the bill.

(for ANYTHING! pizza included.) T.T

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. = =
they were all tricksy with the cash.

anyway, it was another perfect outing. with lotsa pics taken. (:

Serene and Darren are dropping by later to catch "Enchanted" another one of those romance movies.
guess what's one of the things this one has in common with the previous?

Patrick Dempsey!!!

WAHAHAHAHAHA.

CHIPS, COKE, M&Ms and other wonders. (:

I swear, I gained tonnes over this week alone.

back to work! :'(

pics

2008-06-09T08:12:00.000-07:00

Spec Course v3.

Short and Staight. (only for that day)

updateeee

2008-06-09T07:47:00.000-07:00

Yes, I know I haven't been updating.
The lazy bug jumped on and it won't get off.
A few quick updates,

Spec Course v.3 Rocked. (:
My first HQ event and my first camp and it rocked.
Though I didn't really interact much with my platoon till towards the end.
(Had to leave halfway for lessons)

The course was at SISPEC. (Boon Lay)
and yea. it was fun.
Finally being an instructor instead of trying to prove myself to get a specific rank.
hahaha.

Something funny : My cadets actually took note of what I ate during meals! ><
I had an appraisal stating " She did not eat her vegetables"
I was SHOCKED!!!
And they wouldn't believe me when I told them there was a bug inside. = =

Anyway, the day after, I signed up for trainfire which was great too coz I got ta teach Part A (Sec 1) cadets how to strip and assemble the rifle, marksmanship fundamentals, and how to deal with an IA. (:

ahhhhhhhhhhh teaching is fun! especially when it's about the rifle. HAHAHA.

Well, this entire experience is kinda different for me coz this is the first time I've signed up for HQ activities. (NO, I DID NOT GO MIA) I had school. You may say, "But so do the other JC CLTs and they still come for events!" BUT I AM NOT A SMARTIE PANTS AND I NEED TIME TO GET THINGS IN MY HEAD! Even now I am unable to cope. SO LEAVE ME BE!

I'm really quite happy with working at HQ and all the other CLTs. It's really crazy and fun. Signed up for 2 more events, one more trainfire and one IMT.

MY INTEREST IN NCC HAS ONCE AGAIN RETURNED. (:

Moving on,
I went to cut my hair! on Sunday! And now I look odd.
But who cares.

Interact Day today!
Ushered Mr Suresh, a member of the Rotary Club.
He kept asking me questions about the school and the club.
and I realised.

I need to find out more.
T.T

Anyway, I'll just leave you with these two awesome movies to catch
(watched them "recently")

1) Les Choristes (The Choir) FRENCH
2) Helen the Baby Fox JAPANESE

Ta guys!

You don't know how much energy
Is used to avoid you.
To detest you.
And then to crumble at the mere sight of you.
Being pounded further, into dust,
At the rejection of yet another attempt to reconcile.

back.

2008-05-29T08:10:00.000-07:00

I'm hooooome! (:

actually I was home yesterday, but oh well. Exhaustion.

The camp was surprisingly enjoyable. Coz I had a great group. Many experiences which I'm not gonna bother you guys with. Important ones though:

1) Sand Castle building

really MASSIVE structures. REALLY fun!!! (:

2) Land Expedition

20+ km
2330 - 0540
AJC -> Bedok Jetty

FUN. Nothing else.

we bonded.
we survived together.

it was just

completely

awesome.

I navigated twice. And because I'm a girl, my competency on the area of having "a sense of direction" was doubted once. But only once.

2) SL project.

We planned games for the mentally disabled. My buddy was an autistic 23 year old lady whole stole my lunch. haha. But even so, she knew how to show appreciation. She recognized me when I performed on stage! When I came back to her side after the performance, she was clapping and smiling, looking at me, pointing at me, and pointing at the stage. The look on her face really gave me such an amazing feeling. One of satisfaction. One where I knew all the effort I put in (and the rest of the people for that matter) to the planning of the event was in no way wasted. Although it was rather challenging as I was the only one there with an autistic buddy, and I couldn't really communicate with her coz I didn't know what she was saying, but, it was still worth every single bit of strength.

Although they may seem different, these people may be the only ones that actually exemplify the true traits of a respectable human being. Observe how the world progresses and how the people change. The conniving, the manupilative, the sneaky, the selfish. People now bear more inhumane, callous and appalling qualities that have been illuminated from past to present. People are now exposing their claws; or worse, actually secretly hiding and sharpening them, waiting for the opportune moment to unleash them . Mind games and politics -in every aspect of life- make our world a more difficult place to live in. The suspicions and threats imposed on one another make people react in various ways that lead to paranoia and an increase in tension and competitivity in the world.

Is this really a place we would want to live in?

Compared to the harsh reality of the society of most countries, there are those less fortunate then us that actually care for each other, and understand the true values of friendship and love. They are willing to show kindness and concern even if the world has not shown them such. They are willing to forgive and forget. And above all, they are willing to love. I'm not saying that people in today's society have no heart. I'm saying that a large majority of people in today's society have no hearts.

Break down those walls, tear down those fences.
Love knows no boundaries.

Remember to care once in a while.

2008-05-23T01:16:00.000-07:00

packing packing packing

camp till next week

see ya folks!

i'm going to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

oh and btw, gp sucked. :(
and my china exchange got called off.

2008-05-22T03:47:00.000-07:00

Well, today was interesting.

I had my Chinese Examination today. & I realised at the last minute that it was actually for my Promos. How sweet's that?

Lesson learnt: Always study HARD for every test even if it don't seem like the BIG one.

Anyways, I had a little sweet surprise today.
I was given a lil bric-a-brac by Mr DODO himself!
*Hope you don't mind the mention of name.

It's this really awesome red dangly thingy with two lil bells attached at the bottom. I think it may be true that it brings exam luck. (:

But we'll only see when the results are out. HAHAHA.

I do believe in it's power, coz that's just the way I am. And if I fail to get satisfactory results, it's not the charm's fault. I know that. (;

For chinese, I realise, that now, the only think I'm lacking is the vocabulary.

I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO SAY BUT IT'S ALL IN ENGLISH!!!!!

T.T

After my 3 hour paper, we had a 2 hour break before Chinese Listening. While eating, the topic on our primary school lives came up. We shared lotsa fun and cute stories about our past. (which I won't talk about now coz I've got another exam tomorrow.) Gist of it is, after our exciting conversation, we suddenly became conscious of the fact that WE HAVEN'T PLAYED THOSE GAMES IN A LONG TIME.

So off we went to the track!!! and as it is during the examination period, so only one person was there. This guy in a bright baby blue singlet. ><

->that's why we couldn't play crocodile at the sit-up station.

So we went over to the mini SOC and started fiddling with everything. Shir and I explored the creepy yet, intriguing back grassy area (which reminded me ALOT of the old Rosyth campus) and the other trees around the area. We then proceeded to speculate about why there were some saws, cups, stick-brooms and broken chairs beside one of the rather large trees. (creepy.)

Took a photo and went back to the sit ups station when we found out the baby blue guy was gone. Played about 15 minutes of crocodile- it was SO much fun! Seriously! you'll not know how much you miss it till you play!

and then I fell and have a huge blue-black on my knee. ><

OHWELL,
I wasn't the only injured. haha.

DINNER
&then GP.

whoopeedoo.

*Thanks for lending me the charm. Really appreciate it!!!

2008-05-21T03:48:00.000-07:00

They won't stop trickling. They won't stop,
They won't stop.
Reason has vanished; rationale has bid its goodbye.
Pain, anguish, sweeps throughout. Reasons,
Unknown.

I can't recall how or why,
Contemplating is all I remember.
True or false?
Wrong or right?

Then sleep caught me, dragged me in.
I awoke with your name at first sight.
Desperately dialing. Desperately longing.
Desperate. Too desperate.

Results: nothing more than the confiscation
Of freedom, The squandering of time.
Wondering, hoping, wishing,
Regreting?
I should have listened to Daddy says I.

not ment to be good.
not ment to be marked.
if you want to make rude remarks on how it sucks,
go away.
your negative opinions on my work is not appreciated.
this is not ment to be critiqued.

thank you. (:

.

2008-05-20T03:46:00.000-07:00

WOW. It's been long eh?

Recent events:

Cheer support on Friday, basketball team won! :) and they were awesome. I got to skip P.E. and arrive home somewhat early. Welcomed the long weekend.

Saturday spent completing GP articles and made a trip to the library to grab some extra reads.
Ended up watching "Helen the Baby Fox" instead of studying after that.

Sunday was for Xiu Li. Her birthday celebration coz I won't be here on that date. :'(
After which I went to watch the Choir Concert, and MY GOD THEY WERE GOOD!!!
(thou someone begged to differ. = =) After that I went for supper with the Usuals. GREAT DAY.

Vesak day spent at home, though I went to Gong Ming San (Kong Meng San) in the evening. That place kicks ass! (: Walked around Bishan Park for a bit with my folks and elder sister.

I haven't seen them Usuals in about what, 2-3 weeks? And I would've practically walked passed them if I hadn't looked properly. You know, when you're close with people, somehow you just KNOW when they're near by, or when you see a familiar silhouette it's obvious they are there. BUT I SERIOUSLY didn't realise it was them till like 5 seconds after standing there. This may seem like some crazy rant but, I feel kinda sad. Furthermore, some have stopped coming for our already very occasional meetings. :(

you tell me you missed me.
i say i missed you too.

you tell me you love me.
i say "really?"

you say "yes."

and I stop to think if it were true.

Coz I somehow don't think it is.

but I still try lying to myself.
just for the kicks.

funny how the world works.

2008-05-07T07:05:00.000-07:00

BMT

2008-05-07T06:43:00.000-07:00

I went to Pulau Tekong today! On a 'Learning Journey'. Just to let us know more about BMTC and stuff. The part I really really liked was where we got to play with the M-16 simulators. heh. heh. I still can shoot pretty well. (;

It was really funny seeing my classmates trying to pull the charging handle. (The girls I mean- not being sexist or anything.) It can be quite tough on the first go. Many had to use both hands. Hahaha. It actually brings back fond memories. About my time in NCC. Though towards the end I actually found it quite a drag. But yea, there ARE things that I have learnt and experiences that I enjoyed, that actually may have played a part in shaping me the way I am today. Well, we are all built by our experiences, that's a fact. And I won't try to deny it. Certainly four years in a CCA would have changed me somehow. Though it sounds really lame to admit. (x

Anyway, for the first time in my life, I did CWO. :O
Yes, embarrassing fact. But. I was late for school yesterday. No idea why. I was feeling unwell and I just couldn't get myself to move. But in the end, I managed to make it at 8 am on the dot. Where I got myself a red mark on my record and a pass to do CWO during my free period. So, after rushing to the first lesson- P.E.- I rushed back for my punishment:

POLISHING THE SCHOOL'S TROPHIES.

The bright side:
- School ended early for once.
- I met Serene for prata, an ice-cream and a slurpee!!!

miss her, miss her, miss her.

Anyway, at Pe.

2.4km: 14.14 (B)------- [14.01 =A]
Standing broad jump: 171 (D)--------- [172 = C]
Inclined pull-ups: 16 (B)----------[ 18 = A ]
Sit and reach: 44(B)----------[46 = A]
Sit-ups: 32 (A)
Shuttle run: 11.1 (A)

I'M SO PISSED!!!!!
):
anyway, not much time to say much
so, here's what I wrote for a GP essay. Not a good piece of work. But, whatever.

The environment is what surrounds us and what constitutes to the way we are. It affects us tremendously even if we do not realize it. It is the natural conditions and circumstances that influences the way we live. Our environment has the ability to make or break us, and that is what many fail to believe. Thus, many do not find a need or see the importance of protecting the environment.

By prolonging the “rescue mission”, we may in fact worsen the actual situation. There are many problems that threaten our environment. Deforestation is one such example. The effects of these activities cause the degeneration of our natural world and the longer we procrastinate, the more difficult it would be to salvage this wonderful world we live in. The consequences in delaying help may cause the accumulation of these harmful effects. Another problem would be that the end products of change that we hope to achieve after implementing our solutions may take some time for the outcome to show. Thus, we might not have any solutions that directly address and solve the severe problems at hand, showing that our efforts should be applied as soon as possible.

There are many things that when gone, cannot be returned or restored. For example, certain species of plants and animals, our precious non-renewable resources, the beautiful primary forests and natural landscapes made by no one other than Mother Nature herself. As our society progresses, we slowly kill off many that once shared our world. More and more animals and plants are becoming endangered and a great number are already extinct. Our supplies of renewable oil are also running low. If we do not learn to use it sparingly or find another alternative, we will soon face several other far more severe problems due to the lack of resources as compared to our overwhelming population size.

We should not forget that everything in the world is connected. Everything we do to the environment will eventually come back to haunt us. The suffering the environment experienced when being mistreated may be sent back to us with twice the impact. A simple example of how everything is inter-related would be that of a food chain. When there is a change in the number of any one of the organisms -or anything affecting the organisms for that matter, - the entire food chain will be altered. The initial proportions of the different organisms in the chain will change and as no one organism is solely related to one other individual, this change will affect the other living things in that particular habitat. The resultant effects impact the ecosystem and ultimately the environment. Thus, even the smallest change for the better or worse, can set off a chain of reactions that can bring about a large differences. All the more reason to start or efforts in helping the environment recover. The gravity of the situation is that the problems (which will affect us in the years to come) will only get worse should we not start acting immediately.

One should note that all the negative effects imposed on our environment or the problems that are faced presently are all interlinked, and will ultimately build up to a devastating problem that we will not be able to solve should we not act quickly. The example of air pollution is one such instance. This major problem adds to the greenhouse effect, which eventually results in global warming that will shorten the lifespan of man if we do not act quickly. Already the numbers of natural disasters are increasing, so much so that they may not seem at all natural anymore. Already the problems faced by our environment are intensifying. By merely increasing our technology and creating new tools that make our lives easier would not help us solve this critical problem. Feigning ignorance in hope that our man made toys will be able to save us from any life threatening disaster is what many do. We should realize that it is time to take this problem seriously and start taking action if we want to have any hope of getting to the bottom of this problem.

Some solutions that can be applied to this problem would be to firstly ensure recycling is commonplace. The amount of rubbish man produce is ridiculous. The problem is that man take things for granted and refuse to treasure whatever he has. As such, the amount of garbage churned out per household is vast. More measures should be implemented to reduce the problem of pollution, reduce deforestation and eliminate the problem of poaching. Natural habitats should be well taken care of and more people should be educated on the problems the environment faces and how else we can help reduce the effects of this major dilemma. People should be aware that this environmental problem is an urgent issue that needs to be addressed as soon as possible in order to reduce problematic future issues. The environmental problem has been present for a long period of time. It is just that no one has taken notice of it. The longer we procrastinate, the more severe the problem will become. Thus, it is vital our efforts are put into effect as soon as possible.

What it is.

2008-05-04T01:19:00.000-07:00

Although they're not professionally done.. hope the idea still gets across. (The scanning's a little weak.)

One is to publicize the loaning of board games the Council provides. The other is to publicize the tagging services provided, (allowing you to keep your heavy stuff in the Council room.)

Anyways, I went to IKEA today! After a realllllly long time. Ate like a pig. HAHAHA. Meatballs, Chicken Wings, Hotdogs, and some cream puff thingy. (I didn't eat everything at one shot if that's what you're thinking. There's a limit to how much my stomach can take.) Went to the optician to choose my dad's new pair of specs. ( AWESOME btw,) And yea. Basically wasted the whole of today doing nothing but having fun! (:

OH and I've recently (once again) become addicted to the TV series "What I Like About You". I watch it on youtube now. And it's really taking a lot of my time. hehe.

WORK STARTS TOMORROW.
Really gotta check my attitude. :S

I need to shed some pounds man. But I'm too lazy.

AHHH. 2am is my new sleeping time. I need to start talking sense.

I THINK IT'LL BE REALLY COOL IF A TIME MACHINE EXISTED!
think about all the things you could do!

The world would be an even more screwed up place than it actually is now.

You know, I have this feeling. Through all this changes everyone and everything is going through, the changes made for the better: industrialization, modernization etc. I think, ultimately, we're all just killing ourselves faster than it actually should be. That's the irony isn't it? We're working towards a "brighter future" but, what's become of the society? Sure, it does produce results, but also, truckloads more of selfish, inconsiderate people. Of course, there are still the nice ones. They are all over if you look hard enough. But think about what's happening. With stress, with environmental pollution, with wars. Is industrialization and all that really the way to go? Is the Earth becoming a better place? Are we becoming happier? Look around, observe. You'll see what I mean.

Just recent

2008-05-03T03:14:00.000-07:00

Some from 38/08 (:

Meet..

The USUALZ.

Past Week

2008-05-03T02:05:00.000-07:00

Hey!

Yes, I haven't been exactly updating. But it's been a real hectic week, and I've been really exhausted. Firstly, because my PI (Preliminary Ideas- an individual component under Project Work) was due on Tuesday. So after the two hours of Chinese which ended at 6.15, I trudged home and started on the vigourous, mentally exhausting journey of completing the document. (Seriously, staring at the computer for 6 hours straight is no joke. Especially when it's for doing something you don't like.) Anyway, I slept at 2. Which was reasonable coz I still managed to finish my History tutorial. (: The following day, I had my 2.4km Napha Test. And I swear I would have done much better if I had gotten sufficient rest. =/ And I had a super super bad stomach ache halfway through my run. The pain came and went thoughout the day, utterly annoying. ><

I rushed out my Math tutorial during the in-between-period breaks so I didn't have to stay back for a one and a half hour tutorial after school. But I didn't finish. So I had to stay back for an hour to complete it. = = THE WEATHER WAS HORRIBLE, I WAS ROASTING. After stressing out, I arrived home and decided to chill for a little bit. I used to computer(this time to watch vids. heh.) and enjoyed my few moments of relaxation before studing for my History test the next day. (Which I think I failed.) I seriously blanked out when I saw the question. I forgot what was under the "hard-line" policies of the US and even included the Marshall Plan and the Truman's Doctrine under a step of being more "hard-lined" towards the USSR. Which actually seemed quite logical to me at that time. (And maybe even till now! But my brain still isn't working right, so...)

I WENT TO NYP FOR LUNCH !!! The first ever time! And I met quite a few of my friends. I felt so awkward, being among the only group of people in school uniform. BUT. they made it seem so comfortable there. I had such a nice time. (: After that, my schoolmates and I headed back to school for SPORTS DAY. Which was... :S Actually it wasn't that bad, but there just wasn't a Sport's Day feeling, because we had lessons first. Unlike in Secondary school where the entire day is off and we have to take time to make our way to the stadium. THIS TIME THE TRACK IS IN THE SCHOOL SO THERE WAS NO EXCUSE. ><

Rushed home to prepare for the play I was to watch that night, "Shakespeare on Love". I felt it was really good. Many found the segment on "Othello" boring, but I thought it wasn't too bad. Don't know why. @.@ Some of my classmates and I were nearly late. But it was fun rushing and trying to find the place. HAHA. Weird, but whatever. We didn't really take many photos, but yea. I guess it's the memory that counts. (BTW, My class was said to be the "BEST DRESSED" HEH. HEH.)We walked back to Central to take the MRT. But by the time we reached, there was only the last train left. Dropped off at Hougang MRT to meet a friend without realising that was the case. Luckily there was still a last bus that dropped us off near our area. Anyway, I got kinda grumpy coz I was really tired. Sorry for showing a little colour dude. It was in no way your fault. I slept at 2 again.

AND LABOUR DAY ARRIVED!!!
I went out with the USUALZ. HAD A BLAST. FOOD. SHOPPING. ICE-CREAM. CHILLING. Thoroughly enjoyed myself. I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH. YOU JUST DON'T KNOW IT. )=

Friday sucked. I got psyched coz its Friday, and that's what you do on FRIDAYS. BUT INSTEAD OF ENDING EARLIER THIS WEEK (because P.E. was cancelled as we had our Napha) I ARRIVED HOME AT 11.30PM WITHOUT ANY DINNER AND WITH MY PHONE OUT OF BATTERY. I WAS SO PISSED. (AJ IDOL was on, and I'm in council. Piece them together.)

This may sound utterly bimbotic and senseless. SO WHAT IF YOUR PHONE HAS RUN OUT OF BATTERY AND YOU WERE HUNGRY? BUT you must understand, the smallest things can make you frustrated after you tolerate certain things for too long. Don't want to mention anything about it..

Anyway, today was nice. Although I slept quite late last night (again) and had to wake up early to research on stuff for my Project Work, I had fun at Yang Zheng! (:
I love those kids man. They're just so cute and fun to be around. It's just where you can let loose a little you know? Without having to go through stuff like the politics, or psychological warfare. (not that I go through those that often,) It's just nice to be there, watch them have their fun. (Though it can be a tad challenging when you want to try teaching them how to obtain the answers instead of waiting on you for them.) They were playing around with my phone and we all swapped numbers. (Those kids that I usually teach.) They were taking photos here and there, running around, etc. AND I found out, I'm actually teaching one of my friend's sisters!!! HAHAHAHAHA. So coincidental! And it all started out with just a name. She got so excited and made me call him. (x.

After everything. I rushed down to AMK Hub, and settled some council log stuff. The leaflets I designed (this morning XP) seemed to fit ok with them. Bought lunch, which I ate at 3.45. HAHAHA. The darn bus took half an hour to come and another half an hour to reach my place. ):

I'M GOING TO PLAY THE PIANO AND FORGET EVERYTHING.
(But first, Pictures!)

AFTER WHICH I'LL BE DOING AN ECONS ESSAY, A HISTORY OUTLINE, AND STUDYING FOR MY ECONS AND MATH AND THE OTHER TEST I HAVE NEXT WEEK (which I can't remember.)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Life's great! (:

school

2008-04-25T08:15:00.000-07:00

I've been swamped with work over the past few days! So many things are due and there's just so little time! My PI is due this coming Tuesday and I haven't heard back from my teacher on whether it's acceptable or not. :S

Anyway, everything seems rather blurry now. Coz it's been the same thing all over again. Nothing spectacular has happened. I mean, school's getting boring! ):

You wake up early every morning, wash up, and try your best to move fast in order not to miss the bus. (which you still occasionally do.) Then you sit by your lonesome self and watch half an hours worth of time pass you by. You arrive at school and assemble, waiting for the National Anthem to play. Your teacher comes down the class row and starts complaining about assignments she hasn't received.

Then,

The dreaded school day starts.

Lecture after lecture, Tutorial after tutorial. (even break after break- it's just a waste of time.) After dragging your heels around the entire school from 7.45 in morning, something magnificent occurs! You look at your watch and suddenly feel all fuzzy and warm inside. Your insides burn with excitement as you turn to your friend and whisper, "OMG. IT'S THE LAST 5 MINUTES!"

And she turns to you with the same idiotic expression you have on your face from the moment you saw the time. Silently you celebrate as the last few moments of the school day draws to a close.

DING DONG DING DONG

(it's almost like the impact an ice-cream truck's jingle has on a little kid)

You start smiling like a moron (if you still have the energy,) and you feel relieved. Happy that it's all over and you survived yet ANOTHER school day.

As you happily pack your things and head towards the MRT station with your friends. Laughing as if it's all over, suddenly someone would ask, " What homework is there?" Then you feel as if suddenly chains flew out from within the school compound and were heading straight toward you. You try to flee but aren't fast enough. And, it ends with them clamped upon your ankles, refusing to let you go.

Another half an hour is wasted on the bus. But at least this time with a companion.- Them heavy chains.

2008-04-23T03:13:00.000-07:00

Doesn't this look really, really, REALLY nice?

I MISS YOU GUYS SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!! :(

AND MY PI GOT REJECTED! AGAIN!!!

ok, not really an outright rejection, just some final editing left to do and it should be fine. But I gotta rethink almost the whole thing agaaaaaaain. :S

was doing some math last night. and i realised

I SUCK AT LOG AND EXPO! T.T

there goes math.

ARGH. THERE'S NO TIME ANYMORE!

*Darren: what's your new blog link?

2008-04-22T03:31:00.000-07:00

Had no extra lessons today! (:
So I reached home at 3.40! :D
Once in a blue moon sorta thing. haha.

P.E!

Standing broad jump: 180 (SHOCKINGLY FAR FOR ME.)
Sit ups: 34
Shuttle run: 10++
Inclined pull ups: 17

HAHAHA. It's coming back! (:
let's just hope my 2.4 and sit and reach won't fail me.

Napha's next week. :S

Today was just like any other school day. I began to realise that I am getting the hang of the information about the cold war. But I'm still not quite there. I think I'm actually starting to adjust, or finally am starting to sink into this whole JC life thingy. At times it does suck. The deadlines and stuff. But I guess I'm starting to get used to it. Hopefully I'll be able to cope and do well for my mid years, (which is in about a month's time. :S) AND OF COURSE PROMO'S AND A'S!

I'll be going to China! for an exchange programme thingy. LOL. The only one that signed up from my class. >< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">heh.

My Project work's gonna be on something interesting. (:

Exponential and Logarithm Math Test: Thursday
Literature Timed Practice: Friday
History, Full Length Essay on The Origins of The Cold War: Next Wednesday.

NEXT WEDNESDAY'S GONNA ROCK!!! (:
After the test, I'll have sports day, where I'll be doing NOTHING and then I'm of to watch "Shakespeare on Love" at the DBS Arts Centre! :D:D:D:D:D:D

AND THE NEXT DAY IS LABOUR DAY!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-21T07:14:00.000-07:00

It was nice today. I reached home at 8. Met my friend at 6.50ish. Had a nice journey home, and a little extra something towards the end.

Haven't met you in a long time.

Besides that, I managed to finish the entire load of homework I had during the couple of breaks I had. AND I'M SO PROUD!!! I skipped lunch though, and that sucked. But still, it wasn't bad.

I'm in no real mood to blog about something intelligent or interesting in any way today. There's still lotsa work to do, and the 3 hours of sleep are catching up with me. It's 10.40 and I'm already exhausted.

Fill ya in on the info soon~!

GOOD NIGHT!

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2008-04-20T03:18:00.000-07:00

OMG. I'M FINALLY HOME!!!

ok, fine. I was gone for only about a day. But still..

Anyway, Friday was a mood killer. Unlike other Fridays, this one was different. There was an unusual increase of the tons of weekend homework given, (which I haven't touched yet btw.) Anyway, it was a rather depressing Friday. Coz instead of doing my tons of homework leisurely at home, I had ELECT'S CAMP the next day, marking the confiscation of my long awaited weekend. Furthermore, P.E was the last period. We had to do our 6 usual rounds and 3 exercises, ( Dips, push-ups and sit-ups.) - continuously. We decided to run three rounds, two, then one, with the exercises in between. We were to be dismissed after we finished it all of it. So we started the tracherous, never-ending run round the track, and my class ended 10 minutes early!!! Hooray! you may think. BUT no, after P.E. I didn't go out as planned. =/ (no matter though.) My classmates and I painfully dragged our way to the MRT station, sharing our pessimistic views of life to make it more interesting. Adding to the mood was the beautiful, clear GREY sky. (Indicating rain approaching. ) Strangely enough, it matches our uniform colour! (: (again, reference to our dull life.) My friend and I ran for the traffic light (with our cumbersome bags and aching legs.) only to later find out our other two friends were'nt behind us. ><

My phone ran out of battery, (another reason I couln't go out,) and it was, again, DULL the whole way home.

I looked forward to reaching home early and completing all my assignments before the dreaded subsequent morning. (yea, right) Anyway, as usual, my plan failed and I ended up watching South Park, having dinner, teaching Xiu math and then having an Oatmeal supper with Xiu watching, YET ANOTHER round of South Park. HAHAHA. One of my very few sources of short, sweet entertainment. (:

In short, I DID NOT COMPLETE ANYTHING.

and now, here I am, blogging.

OHWELL, at least I edited my PI already. (just.)

I'll tell ya about the camp soon. the next time.

functions!

2008-04-17T02:09:00.000-07:00

Had Mos Burger for lunch today. Met Poti at AMK Hub. We were supposed to eat Subwayyyyyyy..............

oh oh. anyway, today's main happy point:

I passed my function's math test!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

10/13

about the same as some of those with amath background.

YAY!!!!

hahaha.

What's left:
2 hist outlines
lit annotation of London Poems
GP blog entry

OMG.

Persepolis

2008-04-16T07:48:00.000-07:00

Was accompanied by Darren to school today! SO glad I have a partner to sit with me through the half an hour bus ride to school on Mondays and Wednesdays. Your company is greatly appreciated. (:

I watched Persepolis today. It's a film on the Iran War and it wasn't too bad. (considering what many felt, coz it was for History.) It's rather interesting and the way the characters and setting was drawn and shown was really good. The direction was swell as well. It isn't one of those documentaries with the "time-to-sleep" voice-over. This film does pull in your interest by showing the war from this little girl's perspective. (at least there's something to relate to.)

Anyway, immediately after school, all of us swamped at the MRT station. (seriously, this is the first time you ever see so many people from my school heading to town. ..usually everyone just heads home.. >< ) my classmates and I rushed to buy lunch and smuggled it into the theater. (: There, I enjoyed my approximately one and a half hours of freedom. followed my classmates to HMV after the movie and then headed home. Slacked for quite some time before attempting my math tutorial. AND I ACTUALLY KNOW HOW TO DO SOME OF THE QUESTIONS!!! :D:D:D:D

I'm starting to like math again. (;

THE WEEKEND (;

2008-04-15T07:24:00.000-07:00

ARGH.

Spent my weekend out! and now I'm loaded and overflowing with work.

First, the weekend.

On Saturday I went back to Hougang for NCC. ( haven't been back in a LOONGG time) anyways, instead of doing PT as planned, I skipped it with Cherlene and tried saving a little bird that fell from it's nest. It was being swamped by ants and it's leg was injured. We carried it on a piece of paper, back to the canteen, where we tried to clean it's leg. We placed it near the area where we found it after that, and I left for Yang Zheng while Cherlene watched over it. No idea how things went though.

I left late due to the bird situation and arrived slightly late for tutoring, but no worries. (: I just found out that I am taking care of about 5 kids! while others are taking care of one or two. heh.heh. quite cool eh. anyway, i stayed back with two of the kids who wanted to play spelling, it was quite fun and they were really cute. The primary 5 syllabus has really changed from last time. Instructions contain more difficult words like "synthesis" and "transformation", kids are allowed to use calculators for math. :O
oh well, smarter younger generation.

After tutoring, I ran in the rain back to the mrt station and rushed over to PS to meet Dan , Nigel and Bjorn. Was initially supposed to meet them for lunch and then head over to the library to do some research. UNFORTUNATELY, the idea of hanging out and helping Dan pick out a new pair of jeans seemed far more interesting. And in the end... yes, I did not do any work.

Sunday morning was spent at the National Library, researching on information for my History Outline. However, results were.. unfavourable. After that I met my sweet sweet SERENE! :D
I MISS HER SOOOOOO MUCH! We went for a mudpie at NYDC then rushed over to the Esplanade to watch a band concert. IT TOTALLY ROCKED MAN!!! I enjoyed it soooooo much! it's been so long since I last attended a concert. (addiction2) still, omg. the music was amazing. i guess it's also coz I have less time to enjoy stuff now, so i do appreciate the small breaks i get. (:
Serene and I met Jackson Faith and Shi Min there as well! another group of people we haven't seen since, forever! (: then, we met An Chun, who performed. ^^

I THROUGHLY ENJOYED THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

14th April = 2nd month = awesome (;

lotsa work!
oh, I'm in council.
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NYAA GOLD
Interact
NCC
STUDIES

less than two years man..............

PERSEPOLIS TOMORROW!!! Movie time!!! :D

Resilience Wkshop

2008-04-11T02:46:00.000-07:00

Was doodling during Resilience Workshop today. Heh heh. Incomplete, but what the hell right?

Anyway, the workshop was alright. It wasn't really interesting or anything. BUT, I did manage to find out that:

I am below average in

Self- efficacy

and Emotion regulation

(which explains the lack of control of emotion and my constantly inconsistent moods. heh.)

I am average in

"Reaching out" (like helping others or asking for help)

Optimism

Casual Analysis

and I am above average in

Impulse control

and Empathy.

YAY ME! (:

later~

2008-04-10T00:40:00.000-07:00

I had my Festival of Life course today.
"The Idiot's Guide to Good Singing."

It wasn't so bad. Quite interesting exercises practiced. The identifying of vowels reminded me a little of Lit which was.. odd.
I found out one of my friends can sing really well! (:
Our course ended at 12. I went home and watched the telly till... now. hahaha. it's already 3.44. can see how much time I've wasted. OMG. Feel really lethargic. I need to go run.

I keep reminiscing.

THAT IS BAD.

Move on. We gotta always move on.

HAHA. So says me.